Something that can't drop

Well... tis is something i had in mind since our last gathering during fatt's farewell and if i dun write it out it'll stick in my mind forever... the story is like tis, in our last gathering i was talking to HY in the car on our way to pick up 018; we were both talking about me and there are 2 things that she mentioned that is really worth remembering. 1st is that about my little "issue". Now i know y the gang won't let me off and keep bugging me about that little issue of mine. When i told her that i've forgetten about it, she totally did not believe me because according to her, its quite impossible to be able to forget about it so easily. I guess i'm better that i thought, i am able to forget it so easily. Which brought to the 2nd issue...

The 2nd thing is that i'm a dangerous person because i keep my feelings too well, its like a walking timebomb. I keep my feelings so thight that i might hurt myself. The example she give was that when i feel sick, i'll ignore it that until its TOO serious then only i know i'm sick. Well i can't say that she's wrong coz that's me ... I never know wat i'm feeling coz i've ignore my feelings for a quite sometime, like i previously mention, i took 10yrs of my life to learn how not to feel, how many person u know dat is able to do it? To ignore feelings, emotions and emphaty towards people. I cant say dat i regret my decision back then because i'm who i am today because of that skill. Thru that skill i've learn a lot about managing people and how to make reasonable decisions. Now, although i've stop practicing that skill of mine but i still find it difficult to know wat i'm feeling, especially those warm feelings... for example, how do i know when i really fell for some1? wat is luv?? wat does it feels like? I chose love for my example because its the best example i could think of.

Mixed feeling, emotion and watever ... all jumbled up

Well today is not a gud day for me ... reason? Well, i got some gud news, some not so gud news and a terrible news... talk about the good, the bad and the ugly... sigh...

Well the good news is dat a close fren of mine is returning from UK today, i just dunno wat flight will he be in .. its been awhile since i last saw him so kinda looking forward for a meeting

The not so good news is the fact dat 018 is leaving for PG today... yup, he's starting his job on monday so he's going up today. Most of my frens are everywhere... its getting harder to keep wif them now.. i dun even know most of them went .. aint life a ball?

The horrible news is the news dat yf's dad was admitted to the hospital after being stabbed by a robber ... god damn it.. if u wan the money then just show the knive and take the money, y the hell do u wanna stab the fella... the thief nowadays has got from bad to worse .. welcome to the country's education system i guess... can't they be more professional? Screw u thieves!!! may u rot in hell and choke whenever u try to eat and drink. %*)^^$!$_!^$!)

Next on the agenda is the dinner i had wif Yap. Well our little meeting at Ms Ooi's wedding i got to know dat everyone back in GMS and ACE has left... Yap was the last.. Not forgetting dat Ms Ooi is pregnant.. haha.. it just looks funny .. i totally felt like a kid there, i might be the youngest there but .. well.. like i say its a mix feeling ...

There is a reason y i wanna keep tis short ... i'm sleepy and tired hahaha... i just wanna keep a record of my life especially on this "remarkable" day

My first .... .... ... ...

Firstly tis is wat happen on Merdeka day... i got to uni at around 11am and i started on Dr N's paper... it was tough.. mind boggling, muscle straining, and eye tiring task to read his paper... so much theory... so much knowledge... just so much.. start to get a feel of wat the card from MTG- Rush of Knowledge feels like.. no wonder it can deal damage to player hahaha... Well i was at Dr N's stuff till 1am... for the record tis is the 2nd time i actually had a full rush of knowledge.. for the 14 hours i've studied.. i had a minimum of 8 solid hours of pure studying ... and it really can take a toll on the body. Later WY, Meng, KT, Dailo and i got together and went for a drink at a mamak stall. At around 2 we all went our way... on my way back, the thing on my head was to get home ASAP so i ran a redlight and guess wat.. there were some traffic police there waiting for me .... muhahahaa.... after 6years of driving... i got my FIRST .. i repeat.. my FIRST summon, it happen at the traffic light in front of Genting Court at 2.22AM hahaha... damn... the cops hint me for the "tolong" thingy but i only had about 30ringgit in my wallet so i din think it would work, but only to found out later dat there was a "student price" wtf... well now is a bit too late since i've got the damn ticket now .. sigh.. now i need to settle the damn thing b4 the 15th..

Short trip to Nilai part 2

Well tis is a follow up to my previous post about my short trip to Nilai (http://aleech.blogspot.com/2006/05/short-trip-to-nilai.html)

These r some of the photos we took... can't believe its been almost 4 months since i last saw AJ... Not forgetting YF whom i won't be meeting earliest next year .. hope she's fine over there...

well tis is everyone... smilling away in front of the camera

Hey i din know the camera has a remote control hahaha

Supper time... ordered some burgers coz every1 was hungry...

Well luv to share more photos but can't find any more suitable photos to be published publically hahaha... Oh ya.. did i mention dat i can actually see the Nottingham University from tis burger stall hahaha... coz ah Fatt is studying there .. he has grad from his Masters programme now and AJ is going to finish his degree in UK.. wat bout me?? still struggling and sulking .. sigh.. well lets not go there and let my enjoy tis hapi moment a bit longer

Its a cold cold day.. + some random thoughts

Well usually when i say cold i mean it literally but today.. i truely mean it. It's been raining since the afternoon and the weather now is just simply marvelous for sleeping yet i can't.. talk about torture... finals is next week and i've yet to master any of the topics from any subject.. and i truely wonder whether will i be able to finish everything in time for exam. I remember i told some1 dat "U'll have enuf time finish, so dun pressure urself" even though i noe dat i'm facing the same problem too... haha dat's me, always finding ways to make other ppl feel better while myself is walking the plank aboard the pirate ship. The end is near yet i tell ppl around me its not.

Been having a lot of thoughts lately... I'm in my final year now... in about 6 months time i'll finish my course here and graduate.
Wat will happen to me??
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Where will i work?
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Should i try my luck again back at Intel?
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Should i give a thought to wat TTL has offered me?

and for the more personal question... Will i be able to get that special someone b4 i graduate from this wicked place i call skool??

Recently wif all these so called "peer-pressure" dat i'm getting from everyone, i just cant help thinking will i gradute from uni STILL being single? Sometimes seeing some of my frens during their convo, having dat special some1 by his/her side during dat moment, well u'll notice dat they'll smile even happier dat others. Yea.. i have frens but i just wanna know wat does it feels like having dat special some1. If WY were to read tis the 1st thing dat comes to his crocked mind is "U have target o not?? Dun juz think.. must act la" [ hehe.. well WY if u r reading tis pls proof me wrong] Targets?? Muahaha... Yes.. No.. i dunno hahaha...

#wif sleepy eyes# spend entire day in library again today... due to the weather.. i reall feel tired no. just feel like drop everything n go to sleep... but i can't.. coz a lot of stuff i've not finish sigh.... i'll see how long am i able to push myself b4 surrendering to this wonderful sleeping weather hahha... the time now is 930PM hahhaha

Me easy to mix??

I've been getting a lot of this, "U knows everyone" or the "Can u name me some1 u dunno" and the "Lam kau yau" ( its chinese, for some1 who mix wif virtually every1, its usually to meant it a bad way) . Sometimes i wonder izzit a compliment or whether its an insult.. gheeze....

While havin dinner wif windz n irene we discussed about mixing aroud. Irene make a remark dat i belong to those hyperactive, talkative and easygoing type.. well basically i'm ok wif the remark is dat when windz say dat i "lam kau" dat got me a little uneasy... Irene says dat i could be a good housemate haha.. i wonder.. I told her about my little hidden temper and of my lifestyle well i'm not that easy going sometimes... it still depends on the Who, What, When, Why, and How factors.

So back to my question.. "easy to mix around" ... a compliment or an insult????

Wat do u all wan???

Well it's been less dat an interesting day today. Woke up in the morning just to know dat i wasn't able to connected to the internet.. i was thinking could it be the DNS thingy since it keep on saying unable to resolve DNS. I tried numerious DNS but still nothing.. after a few more tried i give up and went to uni to study.

In uni it was a bit boring since i was alone. At around 4++ WY showed up but i went on wif my studies without giving too much attention to him as there is nothign much i can help him now (i can hardly help myself) At around 6, after many hours of constant head stuffing and squeezing, i stop to rest. WY and i got engage in some rubbish talking it was quite a good way to relax until he started wif his "I know how u feel" and the "I know it doesn't feel good" etc ... sigh..

Well the thing is tis, those who know my little story, knows dat the story has taken a little twist and now the story has ended wif a totally different and twisted end. To the gang, everyone thinks dat i'm affected by it, when i mean everyone i do mean everyone, except for ccl and meng. I mean wat is there to be affected by? To me to engage in an emotion is difficult but to forget 1... hahah as easy as ABC 123. I din take 10 yrs to pratice for nothing. The thing is dat everyone keep on thinking dat i'm unhappy, sad and affected by it and they keep on thinking dat i'm faking it when i tell them dat i'm fine etc. No matter how many times i've explained dat i'm ok wif it so on and so forth but none of them wanna listen... wtf. I'm starting to think dat is them who is having a problem and not me. I'm still as cool as a cucumber on this matter and i dun feel upset at all but them... .. .. #sigh#

Y cant i be ok wif it?? Y must i be unhappy by it? Y ?? I'm an achiver, if i'm unable to drop things such as this then where would i stand? How would i go to achive my goals?? DO they wan me to cry or swear or be emotionally drain n down b4 they r satisfied? Gheeze... cant they just accept the fact dat i'm ok? Is it so hard to believe dat i'm totally ok and normal? If there is really something dat i wish to say, it would be "May u be happy and well" and i would like to tell them to lay off. Don't try to influence me to go into a bad mood... it just seems wrong .. Anyway dat is basically dat wat i told WY when he started wif tis nonsense again and i told him to just drop it. Hopefully he will.

At around 8 i went home just to find out dat the line is still down.. this got my bored-o-meter to shoot up to almost infinite. I linger around the house like a fish out of water, doing tis n dat just to pass time. At almost mid nite, dad got a phone call dat guy was talking about phone problem tis n dat which made dad really restless. So on the 3rd attemp i got the phone, and i too got restless, I manage to hear him out and then i appoligize for my behaviour which made him quite happy too. Just b4 i hung up the guy on the other end asked whether are we stealing his phone line which got me a bit angry, i just told him dat "Y should i, i even have my own streamyx here" he just said ok and hung up. After spend sometime thinking, i made a little experiment and found out dat the guy wasn't lying.. something IS wrong wif my phone line. The number dat is connected to my phone is not my phone number at all. I make it a point to go to Telekom in the morning to get tis settle wif...

Look at the time.. its time to log off and sleep like a log hehehe ... till next time

Tick-tock... tick-tock

Do u hear the passing of time? Wif each passing second, i'm getting closer n closer to the finals haha.. life sux. I always wonder, how come i've been facing exam since a young boy and its been more than 10 years, but how come whenever is exam time u'll get the shivers? Anyone who is anyone is worried... We discussing it wif Fatt Seng and a few others ytd, wif my current CGPA i wonder will i b able to pull it up to 2nd upper.. its so close yet its SOOOOO far... can i, will i, should i even think of getting a 2nd upper?? it's so mythical now... sigh...

Ever since i've step down from the position of chairman i start to get the initial study mood i once had back in year 2, i think its a gud sign.

Almost everyone is bugging me about my private life recently and i wonder y do they even borther wif it. I'm an average guy who has not given much thoughts of getting a mate and yet ppl around me r pushing me to get 1 saying dat its my final year in uni blah blah blah... well like i always say, u choose ppl and ppl choose u. DO u honestly think dat the person u think u wan, wants u? Or do u think the person u really thing u wan is the one u REALLY wan? Its not easy getting in a relationship and as much as i wan one. I've honestly tried to get involved but in the end ... ... ... just say i dun think i tried as hard as i think i could. Like the song from TLC, Waterfall

Dun go chasing waterfalls
Please stick to the river and the lakes dat u used to
I know dat ur gonna have it ur way o nothing at all
But i think u r moving too fast .. ~~

The moral of this song is dat u keep to the things dat u r used to and take things step by step. I was nvr good in handling relationship or feeling; the only thing i'm good at is legal-politics, adminstrative and management. Well i might not be really "good" but i feel more at place when i'm doing things like dat. The problem is ... will i ever get a "someone" to be by my side?? only time will tell... ... ...

Did the DiSC personality dat Patrick Han gived us. According to him, most ppl have their D and i about the same but how come for me my i and S is about the same while my D is WAY WAY WAYYYY low... just 1. Let me put it in a more readable format here, tis is wat i got for my tally box
........Most Least Difference
D .......1......... 9.......... -8
i .........8......... 5........... 3
S.........6......... 4........... 2
C ........3......... 2........... 1
N ........6........ 4
Total 24 ......24

So i'm the "i" type the Influencing type, i'm a peaceful, self-promiting, non-demonstrative and high standard kinda person.
my self perception? my pattern: appraiser
Wat people expects of me?? my pattern: the Counselor;
Wat instinctive response to pressure? my pattern : perfectionist

Haha.. well tis is my DiSC results.. to those reading this, care to share ur 2cents?

A nice chat

Well i know it's been like forever since i last updated my blog but i can explain hahaha.... damn tis makes me feel guilty ... previously there was a period where blogspot seems like dun let me blog, everytime i click on create new post the site just hangs there.. it went on for bout 2weeks ++ until i got fed up and then stopped... Well better late dat never rite? hehehe... well back to my blog ... ... ...

Today was a funny and gud day if i may add. Started the day wif my MP tutorial class, i was wonderin wat got into Charlie, she's like a bit "high" today.. i even asked her has she took her meds b4 class.. she was SO worked up wif the name Kah Chun and insisted dat Ah Wah was How Kah Chun until i told him to show her his IC which she really came n see.. swt... then she insisted Andrew as Lim Kah Chun too... hahaha... she's a bit out of orbit today i think.. may be is the fact dat it is out last class wif her and she's FINALY thru wif us hahaha. There was 1 joke when she told us dat Patrick (our lecturer) told their HOD dat the "EE students r hardworking" we were like "WTF ... was he drunk?" lolz... nvr in a million years i would hear dat coming from our lecturer hahaha... The only think dat i feel sorry was dat i wasn't able to take a photo wif Ms Chia today.. it's kinda sad u know, not having some memories of my teachers dat have tought me, so i've decided to get a camera ASAP so i can take photos of them later .

Well later today after all my class i was in the library studying when yanseng "reminded" me about my absence of blog material and not to mention the same reminder from WY dat i know there r actually ppl reading this piece of blabbing rubbish dat comes out of my mind hahaha... it feel good to have ppl admiring ur work muahahaha...

At about 3++ i went to the canteen to refill my water bottle and leong hooi's when i met Ms $$. It came to a surprise dat i dun recognize her, she said hi and then asked whether i recognize her o not which obviously i didn't hehehe (feeling kinda bad for not remembering ppl faces) coz tis is i think the 2nd time it had happen but each time for some reason, the 1st time was dat she has trim her hair which makes her look a little different and tis time she was wearing a pair of spectacles. U know.. when girls wear spectacles they r a totally different person, they look SOO different. Anyway we got engage in a conversation. It went from a normal "hi, how do u do" to a vry social and enjoyable chat and i believe tis is the 1st time i've talked to her since we knew each other. Standing in front of her n talking to her i found out dat she's from Sg Petani, Kedah; tis is her first time in Kl; she got involved in accident right before skool started; there r only 7 ppl in her course and she's the only female (tis explains the escorts); and she can cook hahaha, a skill dat is deteriorating among girls in tis century [no offence ladies]. The best part is about wat she told me about me hehehe.. she said dat she have a vry gud first impression of me and she thinks gud of me. I can't believe dat i'm still able to inspire ppl nowadays. Hearing dat i start to flirt around wif her saying funny if not crazy stuff (as usual) . All these chit-chat was broken when i got a call from LH asking me to buy something for him to eat and then we talk for aout 5 more mins b4 going in separate ways.

After refilling i got back to the lib to continue studying since i can't go anywhere.. it was rainin outside and i can hear *dogs barking and cats meowing outside so loud dat i worry whether could i go home o not. At about 6 the rain died down so i took my chance n rush home.

On my way home i spotted Inspector Lee's (he's not actually a cop, just a nick) car and was wondering where he's heading.. anyway i got to the pertol station to refuel and to get my rain coat since the rain just picked up again. When i got home, the rain went from medium to heavy... talk about in the nick of time.

Sigh... exam is so close and i've not finish my tutorials... could i live up to my promise dat i'll finish Lo's tutorials at least 3 times??? I hope i can.. i need to do VRY well if i wish to pull my grades ... wish my luck guys

P/s the * actually meant a idiom, it is raining cats and dogs.. there r no animals in uni.. only monsters hehe i.e. me hehhee

Short trip to Nilai

Well today is our little gathering cum farewel to Chiun, who's going to leave to UK tis sun morning, and YF, who leaves to the states on july. The gang decided to wait at mid valley at 530 so after i've finished watever i need to do at windz place (we were discussing bout our FYP) i met up wif Chiun at Wangsa Maju station. From AJ i go to know that Chok Chuin did not clear thus he won't be going to UK.. sad news... sad news indeed...

When we got to Mid Valley, we went to McD n waited there... While waiting we go ourselves a sunday.... After HY arrived we waited for FP. When she arrived, i guess she din see us coz she went into McD looking for us, HY n i were laughin outside haha... how could she miss us?? Well may be is the crowd in front of us thus she over looked. Well we moved on to look for YF. When we found her she was bz wif her stuff and HY went to MPH which later i followed, i went to look on some books that i hope would be of some help to my project. Saw some interesting titles such RFID toys and BlueTooth Toys... interesting but no.

Later when i got back, YF turn to my side and said "Wait for CH to... " then she scared herself. Without her knowing, i was already by her standing side. We went to Little Penang to have our dinner and then called 018 that we'll b paying him a visit. While eating we behaved like we own the place, making a lot of noise tis n that.. haha. After our meal we went of to HY's place coz FP is going to park her car there. We start our little journey at bout 8 or 815 i think.

While on our journey, we still continue to make a lot of noise.. haha i guess birds of a feather, flocks together. Suddenly Chiun rmb bout the little scene from Shrek II. "R we there yet?" both of us went on and on until it annoyed almost every1 in the car, even after he stop i kept on goin which resulted in a slap haha... The whole journey was fun, we talk bout a lot of rubbish stuff like we used to.. Sometimes i really miss the miss calls we like to pla etc haha...

When we got to 018's place.. wow the place looks great. The hse was huge but when we got in.. haha i was shocked. The living room is full of stuff, from ladder to tool box to climbing equiptment haha.. when fatt told us that they install almost all the electrical application at the house i was suprise. I guess tis fellas really put wat they learn into real application haha. The best part was that he's housemate owns a personal DC power supply, a DMM, and a Tektronix scope.. tis hse is really a heaven to those engineering student who is keen to have hands on.. really a master piece.

Later we went to get ourselves a burger, as HY n YF was walking to the door, suddenly 018 push the door and force both of them out trapping them in between the doors. It was funny looking at wat he did hahha.. locking them in between, no where to go. We told FP who was slowly untanggling the rope to finish untanggling first. While outside, both HY n YF was shouting n knocking on the door which was really funny hahah.. they din expect to be lock out by 018 hahah.. thinking back it was really funny hahah..

Went across the field to the burger stall n ordered some burgers. WHile waiting HY actually ask to borrow a bicycle that was there. YF n FP took turn at the bicycle too. When the burger was done we went to one of the seats on the feild n ate there. Oh yea, i should mention that the field was great, the stars look wonderful there and the air feels so clean. 018 told that when this place first launch each unit only cost 140k which was relatively cheap. Too bad i'm still jobless, if not i sure will consider haha..

Well after burger and a lot of chit chat we decide is time to go since i got class next day. We went to take some photo at the field and some inside the house haha. From the time we dediced to leave till the time we ACTUALLY leave.. its minimum 30mins more...aih... but nvm since its been sometime since i last saw ah Fatt . Got some funny pic of my but too bad i've not got them yet.. mayb later haha

I guess i won't be posting any photos tis time.. hehe.. till next time ..

Season of Loneliness

If i've ever wonder how is like being lonely.. today is a vry good example. After class i was in the library finishing up on something. Later i went to DSA n had a chat wif the officer. The chat lasted for sometime, and it started raining vry heavily. I have no where to go so i sat there n waited. The dance club committees was there n i know most of them but as they were bz preparing for their event next week so i din spend much time talking to them. Anyway, the loneliness part is not tis. May be it is.. ... well u see, i was there sitting there like an idiot nobody came to talk to me, nor did i went n talk to them. The room just felt so cold all the sudden.. is like nobody care a damn bout u and ur just stranded there... As i din bring along any text book, i can't study, i din wanna go back to the library since its raining, and i cn't do much bout my FYP so i just sat there. Did some mumbo jumbo stuff like the society missing members etc but when i was done i was lonely again. There is just such a void in me that ... ... well feels so empty n sad. I guess tis is wat loniliness feels like.

Having such a feeling i can't help thinking bout something else. All the sudden i feel like i dun belong anywhere. Nobody seems to know or care bout me when there is nothing going on; i can't help feeling that my presence is only felt whever there is a crisis or havoc going on. I'm the type of person that would jump in, make it happen, moderate the flow and then dissapear into thin air again without having people knowin that i was gone or knowing i was even there. And after an event is over, my existance will be wipe off the history books... To be unknown is nothing; but to be forgotten.. ... ... is worse than death.

Here lies
the unknown,
unheard, and
unseen
entity only known as Leech... ... xxxx - xxxx


Another thing that is borthing me is that, today is the 2nd time i bump into SC and somehow is like i can't squeeze a word in. Is like i'm no longer welcomed in her frenship circle.. wel mayb is just me being too sensitive but i can't help it. I just can't help it if i'm getting a negetive aura from friends... i feel so .. ... uncomfortable, so uneasy.... an icky feeling. I dunno wat happen but i intend to find out, may be after the showcase as she's also involve in it. Anyway i think it doesn't matter as i need to focus more on my thesis that all these things; yet when come to think of it. Is it worth it to lose a fren just because of academic?? Ez question but a twisted answer.

Before i end, i found that there is a song that could represent how i'm feeling, its the chinese song by Lin Dan, "Yi ke ren shen wuo", Survive alone. (I might have got the singer's name wrongly)

Feelings.. y r u back?? I thought i've put u away so that i do not have to feel again.. but how come ur back??? Dealing wif feelings n emotions can really wear u down ... ... ... Be strong, stay focus n execute!!!

English is not only a language; its an art

Today is the 2nd day i attend the progressive writting course and its been both entertaining n educating. I've learn quite a number of Rule of Thumb to use while writting and it has further reinforce certain things that i've been praticing. Hopefully at the end of this 4-day course i'll be able to produce a better writting that all my current work; i know i will but to what extent? Only time will tell.

Anyway today in class i manage to have some chat wif an old fren of mine. Old fren is in a sense that she is among the first girls i got to know when i joined the uni; she's one of the groupmate during our orientation ice breaking. Shu Huin is the name and i've always found her to be sweet n frenly. I went to tell her that is seem suprisin that we've known each other for such a long time but has nvr took the effort to get to know each other, even each others' name. Well hopefully after today we'll be able to have more chatting chance in uni haha...

Later after the class ends, i went to met up wif Kenny n TTL. We went to LowYat, i wanted to get an USB interface card coz my onboard USB is dead, TTL wann get a new HDD and help his fren send something for warranty and kenny was doing some info gathering. Later Kenny ask us whether wanna go for a drink coz his fren called him up, well its ok wif us so we agreed.

We met up wif his fren, a sweet, pretty n friendly girl who was his primary skool fren. We had some laughs due to our marvelous sense of humour. I found out that she actuallys stays vry close to my area haha.. may be there's a chance that we'll bump into each other sometime haha... When it's time to leave we offer to walk her to her car, and luckly we did, she parked her car in an unpleasant area which is truely dangerous for a young lady to be walking alone. All of us warned her telling her not to park her car in tis area again and if she has to then make sure she leave b4 sunset.

Later we went for a 2nd round n Nailis. By then it was alread bout 9+ and we haven't had our dinner. I ordered the Nailis Burger Big Bite... well it looks nice but the meat was kinda salty. Nice but salty... bout 11 we all went our separate ways coz TTL is complainin he's sleepy.

Went i got home i got a phone call from TTL.. he went screaming that his PC dun have SATA II port.. i went to scold him saying that if he dun have SATA why the hell he wanan buy a SATA HDD?? aihh...

I was backstabed...

Today Liz ask me give her some directions to Sg. Long campus for a meething, since i've nothing better to do so i agreed. When we got there we went for brunch at a little shop. While challenging her she shot a "pearl" (those blk thingy u put in drinks) at me together wif some of the drink.. the pearl hit my shirt n leave a green mark on it ... i should hve known better that play wif her ... haha... stupid me ..

While she was having meeting i called NiteCat, since i'm in the area. While waiting for her i went to the lib and i was suprised... the library looks neat n big haha unlike mine. When she arrived we went to the lobby n chatted for some time. After Liz finish her meeting n sat down i started introducing both of them. When Liz decided is time to leave n while we were walking to the exit, suddenly out of nowhere i dunno wat happen she started talking bout going for movies which was totally fine wif me n NiteCat. I leave it to the ladies to discuss coz i'm not the one driving and is NiteCat's choice to follow o not.. so i went to the gents.

After i got out, Liz starting mumbling a lot of stuff at me saying how bad i treat her, how tis n that.. i was left in the dark. As she explain i started to get the picture. NiteCat must have told her how i was like to her last time when i was there. We n the SoTalk gang went for satay and both of us went for movies... Liz keep going on n on bout how bad i was to her and all i said that i'm vry good to her.. while i'm not arguing wif her hahaha.. honestly i dun know... am i so bad ?? =_=''' Anyway since somehow i promised nitecat a movie and i din live up to it her movie ticket was on me and somehow Liz manage to squeeze another fault to me and... wat the heck is monday and its once in a blue moon.

While drivin to Mines, the ladies was talking where good to eat n liz was ready to squeeze another round from me which i just acted plain dumb haha... At the cinema we decided to went wif Persidon which is not a bad choice... the movie was great, it really plays wif the human emotions n start to make u think.. Wat if it happen to u?? Wat will u do?? Overall i would rate it a 8/10 i think. After movie we sent NiteCat home n i got a bit hungry so we went to have something to eat at the hawker center. After meal n some chitchat we left.

While driving back to campus (since my bike is there) Liz n i started talking and i really can't help to agreed wif what SC once told me, Liz n i are really quite similiar. We think alike and we have bout the same attitude towards our work... she is almost a mirror of me. We share the same feeling bout how some ppl can b so bloody good in studies wif almost no effort. We share the same opinion on how things r suppose to b handle and a lots more stuff. Which makes me started thinking.. I really wanna put in some effort n teach Liz some of my management stuff since i see potential in her but she dunno how to use it.. so i do plan to help her to bring out the best in her. Trouble is.. HOW?? hahaha.. who am i to mentor someone?? i can't even take care of myself haha...

Loneliness ain't scary... but solitude is

Had a lot of time to think lately... i got nothing much to do since its the sem break. Dad is using the PC, i'm kinda lazy to do my FYP since i've not have any reliable information so i resort to the next thing to waste my time... i start to think; u'll be suprise at the amount of time i spend thinking about almost everything that had happen around me recently. But it usually goes down to a few thing, namely my personal development, my frens, and my love life (if i have any) and at some point it usually frustrates me.

Actually wat am i?? I mean, ppl always goes around telling that u r unique and u hve strengths that some1 else doesn't and those sort of shit but when i do sit down n think, i cant really think of any of my strengths that surpass all else. Some ppl could just study a single nite n pass the tha paper while it took me 3 whole days n nites to study and yet i came out wif a "D"; some could just go and charm himself a soulmate all within a month and i can't even come close to getting to know some1 deeper given a year period. Some could spend 2 sleepless nites completing tasks given while i'm already a dead fish after the 30hr mark. Some could keep their focus at their homeworks even at home while i can't even concentrate whenever i'm at home. There is a saying "One type of rice breads millions kind of people" well u r not going to get an arguement from me on that but i just cant help it.... Why am i so much inferior to them? What is my strength compare to them?? Yes i'm highlighting the best of ppl around me but the point is that they r something i'm not, they've achive something while i'm still a nobody.. the only thing that i dare to say that i'm better than them is that i'm a workaholic.. and is that a good thing? U tell me ... I can't understand wat is wrong wif me.. I got a brain that just stop functioning when i leave my work place (ie skool)

Was chating wif YK ytd n she brought up a good point... how am i going to get myself a GF wif attitude like tis.. i can't help to agree.. i mean i'm bloody passive, i dun even dare to call up ppl coz i scared that i might disturb them .. i mean come on... WTF is this... All i do is to use words n letters to convey my msg around without directly talking to any1. Talking bout getting a gf... i've decided to stop all my feelings from now on since the signal i've been getting recently has been less that encouraging ... I mean no use longing over somehting u can't rite. So i might as well close the file, just move on n concentrate on my work w/o looking back. I shall return totally forget bout feelings n emotions once more n forget bout even having feelings. I envy ppl who've found their soulmates, i mean looking at them wif their luv one... the feeling is no doubt warm n comfortable but i think i can live without them. No i have no intention of being a bachelor forever just that i decided not to think bout it for now. Well like the song goes, "yi ran shi peng you" by YuHeng

Sun Tze once said, "Know urself, know the enemy; and you'll shall a win a thousand victories." Well he's right on that but the thing is that i myself dunno wat is wrong wif me .. so how could i win?

To be unknown is nothing, but to be forgotten is worse than death

Cant think of a title for tis

I dunno y but recently i do realy feeled troubled n worried. Reason?? Well is quite simple actually.. first n foremost is coz my FYP... just got news that the title we proposed could prove troublesom for us to complete due to a lot of technical problems, hopefully CCL is able to sort them out... i'm jsut the follower here tis time .. so i jsut do wat i can to perform

the 2nd thing is .. well my family i guess.. dunno y but recently mum n dad r quarrelling even more, n usually coz of small crapy stuff... and the best part, i'm always there, in the middle of it all... #sigh# WHY!!!

the 3rd thing is this.. i just can't understand y that i can't find any1 to call recently. I mean i just wanna call some1 to talk to but i can't think of 1, and when i do, i just dunno how to make the call haha... ironic... i still can't get over the phone phobia thingy that i have (there's a phone phobia?? ) its always like this, i pick up the phone, and while dailing i just like wanna put down the phone n assume that i nvr pick it up... its only if i'm able to finish dailing n it starts to ring i can lose the feeling ... WHY WHY WHY!!!! if tis continues on i wonder how will i be able to court girls hahaha... damn...

Oh yea.. Nightmare has just begun

Went to met wif Choon Seng today.. he was in KL n he ask me out for brunch?? hehe.. well he's certainly a somebody today.. he got somewhere after been working for 3yrs. Good for him. We did some catch up and later it was goodbyes. I got back to uni just to find out that only the MMT supp list was out. After some running around.. i got home n started wif my Maple hehe..

Oh yea.. i was happly leveling until i got a msg... Lo's out... .... ... .... I went to the intranet n look at my reeults.. WTF... i got a D for the damn paper.. i thought i would manage at least a PASS.. but .. @&$^)!$!%^!%#)^$^!@ curse it.. I dun understand.. wat is wrong wif me .. how come someppl r able to just go thru it 1 nite n got thru it fine while i've been cracking my head studying for the damn thing and all i got was a lousy D.. I have to take the supp.. if not my CGPA will go down the drain if not the toilet...

CURSE U!!!!

well enuf of sulking... need to continue to work on the damn thing ... God give me strength

I"m addicted ....

What have they done??? Thnx to Windz n Meng i'm now addicted to online gaming again...arrrrr...

DarkMyst is back.... but tis time the name is spelled DarkMyzt hehhe....

The Memoirs Of Leech 2005 (part2)

Well was going thru my previous post only to found that i've miss out a detail, on 14/2/2005, my hse got ransacked. Bro was at home and when he left he forgot to lock the front gate. The theives just came in, clam open the door and walk out as if they own this place... Bro called me back saying that something happen at hoe, i quickly rushed home n saw the damage. Damn... They run away wif mum's jewellery and those CNY angpow leftover cash.

Well the next thing on my agenda is... ... UTAR Ball hehe. I manage to get hold of a table so was sitting wif a gang of frens instead wif strangers. The ball? sux; the food? sux; the venue?? Lol.. sux... so overall.. the event sux big time... i din quite enjoy myself coz JS was rushing, but the best part was that i was able to meet wif the SoTalk gang and bump into Connie and Anthony, my 2ndary skool frens














My table at UTAR Ball














Some of the SoTalk gang
CityBadGuy, CYSS, Aniki, NightCat n Simmy













Not forgetting...
hikki, Vyy and last but not least.. me.. Leech :p

My sencondary frens ... .... ... err... well i wasn't able to upload my those photos.. dunno y blogspot dun let me post my beautiful fren's photo here. well guys, ur lost heheh

Well, after UTAR Ball there weren't much thing worth remembering since i forgot bout them hehehe... ... OK.. next on the list should be my involvement in blogspot hehe yup.. my first blog in May 2005 hehe.

May... ... yup, there's an orientation that we got involved in... yup.. me again as VC wif Carien as chair. Tis time i got involve in Ice breaking instead hehehe... well the things went quite well too if i do say so myself, except that i have to take the job as group facilitator and also game master which really wore me out..

My first photo wif the all the ladies hehe... dunno should i feel proud or should i be sadden by tis pic














The Wild n happenin - Camy
The Matured n Ladylike - YK
The Elegent n adventurious- Florence
The Pasive n quiet - SC
The Gatekeeper n Arbiter - HC
The Mad n crazy- Liz


The committees n the ME-team













Yup..it also brought along some chain of events such as me being known as 2nd boss, got to know another group of ladies (Jessica n gang), being known as the unbelievable, unbeatable, invinceble ME-team and not to mention later the missing ME-team member














Guess who's missing...

Next brings me to June where we sent KY off to Liverpool. Well, it started out like shit.. (i just read the post hehe) CCL and i were thrown around like a ball... we went to watch Madagscar and later was stuck in traffic for hours before making it to KLIA.

The boss of the nite.. Anchor Phoon wif the big man.. Loon














Well when i got the photos from Windz i found out that some of the photos were missing and they were the photos of ... ... ... so we know somehting was up.. only until later that we were able to found out wat happened and volla... a new grp member ~~ Irene... who she n i had quite a bad experience hehee....

Not long after sending KY to Liverpool it was my lil sis's 21st bday. She had book a room in Genting and ask us to go there to celeb wif her... so we did... Stop by ampang for lunch and then we were on our way. Durin the journey i remember ther was a Kancil who was racing wif us while we r traveling uphill; well wat can i say, an midified Kancil vs 5 man GTI .. who do u think won?? hehe...














At genting it was nothing much to do since we din go to the theme park nor did we gamble, but i did go in to those casinos n take a look at them. Ya.. we went to the arcades n have some game which i almost got addicted to it too hehehe ( i'm a gaming freak)













Game on ^_^

i din get much sleep either while we were at genting... instead of sleeping, my eyes were wide open... later at around 3am, JS, WY n i went to CoffeeBean to have a drink.. not to meantion to have some heart-to-heart talk. They kinda make me promise to "share" my little secrets when we r up there and i keep to end of my bargain. I answer all their questions as promised which turns out to be the biggest mistake i've ever done. I always wonder wat happen to the "It's between us" and the "Not a word beyond these walls" .. #sigh# I got to know their secrets and they got to know mine... well it USED to be my secret but not anymore. Almost any Tom, Dick n Harry knows of it thx to them. Always wondered y i always play by the rules? WHY???

I did say it was for a bday celeb rite? Since we din have a cake while up there, we had a replacement cake cutting session when we got back. Yup.... all was there except for CCL














Well that's all for part 2... later was all boring stuff or izzit??? i need to double confirm hehee so more coming up next time...

Yea... its holiday.... .... ... #sigh#

Well initially i was looking forward towards the holidays coz been bz wif skool work tis n that but now ... ... Its only oficially the 2nd day into my and i'm already bored out of my skin; i'm constantly looking for things to do, trying my best to occupy my time. Guess that after getting use to the hectic lifestyle, having holidays is not such a good idea after all. Which leads me to another thought. Am I so bloody mechanical?? Can't i function outside of working environment? Y cant i enjoy my holiday like everyone else?? Y am i constantly looking for things to do, looking for things to occupy my free time ... Like i've been scolding myself lately, i'm pretty pathetic nowadays, having no life, no frens, no fun... #sigh#

Holidays is suppose for u to relax n rest both ur body n your soul before going on to the next challange but ... ... i can't help it, i just can't help it.. i must have thing to do if not i'll bore to death. Tried to have a pack day by going about here n there meeting frens but still... i got limited frens. On sat went out to met wif NiteCat then went out wif TTL and later had a drink wif him n KKM.

On sun bore myself whole day at home before leaving the hse to give my bro a lift to the bus station, then went to look for my bday fren wif chris, lily, n CCL. It was kinda funny. when we got to Fish's hse she was quite happy n suprise to see us, then when we ask her whether can she go out she just frown... at bout mid nite we decide its time to leave and when we try to ask her to join us for a drink, we got a stern reply from her mum which pretty much scared us hehe. At Steven's Corner i manage to bump into some frens, 1st is that guy from TT then just before we left saw KK and his gang (well not HIS gang but his gang, wif LiCheun, MM n KwaiTeng). Exchange some hellos then went off since Lily was crying to go home.

Today?? Well today is a bad day. Been crackig my head trying to figuring out what can i do to pass my time... in the end, i was looking on the net for my pipe robot project haha... wat a "good" way to pass time... looking for info for my project hahaha.. #sigh# Actually i messaged a fren ytd nite asking whether wanna go out today but i din get any reply so i sulk at home whole day longing for a day to see my flesh rot.. Hope tmr will b a better day that today.. .

Nightmare's over ... ... or has it?

Damn... tis is actually a blog i written a few days ago [today is actually 1st of May] but when i post it.. guess wat happened. Connection error as a result all my hard written blog is missing... DAMN DAMN DAMN.... i can't remember the post at all and even if i did i wouldn't wanna write it again coz it would be the same ...

Wat i wanna say is that finals is over and i'm damn relax bout. Been working my sox of for the past 2 months and now is all about Rest and Relaxation.. hehe....

Let me see... my holi plans?? Finish on my unfinished blog such as my CNY holi and my 2005 Memoirs hehe...

PS there is actualy a lot of stuff in the original post but like i say it's kinda hard to write everything out again so i'm skipping it