Something that can't drop

Well... tis is something i had in mind since our last gathering during fatt's farewell and if i dun write it out it'll stick in my mind forever... the story is like tis, in our last gathering i was talking to HY in the car on our way to pick up 018; we were both talking about me and there are 2 things that she mentioned that is really worth remembering. 1st is that about my little "issue". Now i know y the gang won't let me off and keep bugging me about that little issue of mine. When i told her that i've forgetten about it, she totally did not believe me because according to her, its quite impossible to be able to forget about it so easily. I guess i'm better that i thought, i am able to forget it so easily. Which brought to the 2nd issue...

The 2nd thing is that i'm a dangerous person because i keep my feelings too well, its like a walking timebomb. I keep my feelings so thight that i might hurt myself. The example she give was that when i feel sick, i'll ignore it that until its TOO serious then only i know i'm sick. Well i can't say that she's wrong coz that's me ... I never know wat i'm feeling coz i've ignore my feelings for a quite sometime, like i previously mention, i took 10yrs of my life to learn how not to feel, how many person u know dat is able to do it? To ignore feelings, emotions and emphaty towards people. I cant say dat i regret my decision back then because i'm who i am today because of that skill. Thru that skill i've learn a lot about managing people and how to make reasonable decisions. Now, although i've stop practicing that skill of mine but i still find it difficult to know wat i'm feeling, especially those warm feelings... for example, how do i know when i really fell for some1? wat is luv?? wat does it feels like? I chose love for my example because its the best example i could think of.

Mixed feeling, emotion and watever ... all jumbled up

Well today is not a gud day for me ... reason? Well, i got some gud news, some not so gud news and a terrible news... talk about the good, the bad and the ugly... sigh...

Well the good news is dat a close fren of mine is returning from UK today, i just dunno wat flight will he be in .. its been awhile since i last saw him so kinda looking forward for a meeting

The not so good news is the fact dat 018 is leaving for PG today... yup, he's starting his job on monday so he's going up today. Most of my frens are everywhere... its getting harder to keep wif them now.. i dun even know most of them went .. aint life a ball?

The horrible news is the news dat yf's dad was admitted to the hospital after being stabbed by a robber ... god damn it.. if u wan the money then just show the knive and take the money, y the hell do u wanna stab the fella... the thief nowadays has got from bad to worse .. welcome to the country's education system i guess... can't they be more professional? Screw u thieves!!! may u rot in hell and choke whenever u try to eat and drink. %*)^^$!$_!^$!)

Next on the agenda is the dinner i had wif Yap. Well our little meeting at Ms Ooi's wedding i got to know dat everyone back in GMS and ACE has left... Yap was the last.. Not forgetting dat Ms Ooi is pregnant.. haha.. it just looks funny .. i totally felt like a kid there, i might be the youngest there but .. well.. like i say its a mix feeling ...

There is a reason y i wanna keep tis short ... i'm sleepy and tired hahaha... i just wanna keep a record of my life especially on this "remarkable" day

My first .... .... ... ...

Firstly tis is wat happen on Merdeka day... i got to uni at around 11am and i started on Dr N's paper... it was tough.. mind boggling, muscle straining, and eye tiring task to read his paper... so much theory... so much knowledge... just so much.. start to get a feel of wat the card from MTG- Rush of Knowledge feels like.. no wonder it can deal damage to player hahaha... Well i was at Dr N's stuff till 1am... for the record tis is the 2nd time i actually had a full rush of knowledge.. for the 14 hours i've studied.. i had a minimum of 8 solid hours of pure studying ... and it really can take a toll on the body. Later WY, Meng, KT, Dailo and i got together and went for a drink at a mamak stall. At around 2 we all went our way... on my way back, the thing on my head was to get home ASAP so i ran a redlight and guess wat.. there were some traffic police there waiting for me .... muhahahaa.... after 6years of driving... i got my FIRST .. i repeat.. my FIRST summon, it happen at the traffic light in front of Genting Court at 2.22AM hahaha... damn... the cops hint me for the "tolong" thingy but i only had about 30ringgit in my wallet so i din think it would work, but only to found out later dat there was a "student price" wtf... well now is a bit too late since i've got the damn ticket now .. sigh.. now i need to settle the damn thing b4 the 15th..