Still friends.

I hate having de javu feelings but sometime it just happens. Been having a lot of discussion about my love life by a lot of people just too many times and as open as i am to the discussion sometimes it gets eerie and odd sometimes. People are just not satisfied until either they get a good explaination or until they get a good scolding which is either me or them.

I need to really make out a good explaination for myself for this else it's going to be hard to conveince people that i'm normal. Let me try to recall what reasons that i've given to others, i will sometime i tell people that ...

1. i have a small heart, i don't have much space to put so much stuff
2. there is no "feeling" being developed / arise
3. i don't meet much people
4. all of my female friends are either attached or married

On the contrary, some argued that it is because that i've not let go of something or in this case, someone and I always denied this as i don't believe it to be true. But something suddenly strikes me... ... that this statement may actually be true, there is someone occupying that little small space in me ... but the person is not the person whom some believe it to be, is someone else. May be there is just someone whom i cant get over which somehow made me ... ... ... me. Coming to this sometimes i kind of curse myself. Cursing myself to wake up and move on.

I always tell people that i don't develop feelings towards anything easily just because i've learned to somehow manage to control how to manipulate my feelings so i can easily overlook certain emotions. The problem comes is when a feeling does arise and when it does, it just sticks there. Having brought up in a family with (as far as i know) were all in a very long relationship and honour loyality, it just make things worse.

Writing this post remind me of a few songs which really suits my current mood and this post...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNh7udqo4Fc

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPrkMpPhF3U

Nevertheless... we are, of course, still friends... Yesterday, today and tomorrow... still ... ... just friends.

101010

10th October 2010... a date that will never repeat itself ever again (unless we live in a Matrix-like world which gets reset whenver something goes wrong) and i had a very happy and wonderful 101010.

First thing first... gratz to Bro ^.^ hahahahaha happy news indeed !!!

Next... .... Well i had a very happy 091010 and 101010 but too bad is that i'm curently too tired to talk about it. I just wanna make a note here that it was magnificant, had a good time catching up and a good laugh. For friendship... cheers~~~

I'll fil in on the details on a later day nitez world

Financial suicide

I finally taken the leap of faith and jump of the cliff... the item that i've longed for a very long time is finally in my arms. FYI to those who may not know what was it that i longed for, it was basically a DSLR. Felt the drive into photography a couple of years ago but it wasn't until recently that i felt my photography skill really improved, kudos to my mentors especially Haziezol. Due to my improvement, i felt that my existing model may no longer able to provide me with the photo quality that i seek for, for the shots i wanted..

I've been aiming for a DSLR camera for at least 8 to 12 months and been pushing and pushing further away the dream of gettting the camera. Basically it was due to financial reasons. But recently... just late last week on i finally take the courage to do the unthinkable (at least on my mind it was) to do a financial suicide to throw my savings and bought the camera. And within 4 days after purchasing it, i've shot 1400+ shoots haha ... yea that felt good....

Last weekend program was fantastic...
0830 - 0910 Free shooting
0910 - 1300 Couple portrait shooting
1810 - 23.00 Colleague wedding dinnr
23.00 - 0200 Coffee session
0230 - 0300 bath and waiting for bed...
0600 - wake up... (due to sms haha)
0800 - 0930 Breakfast
1000 - 1230 Badminton ( i was with my camera most of the time)
1400 Reach home ...
1400 - 1600 photo editing + some clicking here and there
1600 - 1840 Zzzzzzzz... (i hardly believe i will sleep actually but i was just drained)
1840 - 2000 Cooking and dinner
2000 - 0000 Continue photo edit + internet clicking :)

Damn it was a tiring weekend but i enjoy every last minute of it ... i wonder what will i do this weekend?? =)


I leave with the mug shoot of myself of the damage that i've induced on myself to remind of myself that I like photoshoot and i should continue pursue it and keep it up.. yea~~

Pine view

Another PRQ for company "I"... and initially we were promised a little lappy for each of us who participated... but in the end, all we got was the Easten wind. Anyway there was a celebration dinner last friday in Gurney Hotel and there was a lucky draw of the little Pine for 40 lucky winners... and no, i didn't manage to win it... but i got myself a prize as the organizer said that everyone will walk away with something.

Talking about the dinner, i am really frustrated with my camera's battery (i almost say camera but i know i can't) , it can no longer store charges... less than 100 shots and the battery dies on me. I really need new one else i'm stranded... I got a rather good camera but no batteries, how pathetic can you go??

Now i'm waiting for my prize... hopefully Zol remember to bring it tomorrow haha... itchy hand again hahahha ....

Photo shoot out ~~

Just had a photo shoot out with CCL and Zol. I have my camera before both of them and yet they seem to be more professional than me :( i guess your skills can be cap by the limitation of your gear ... ish ish ish... well since i'm broke then i think there's nothing much that can tempt me into buying a new camera gear hehehe ....

Well it's almost like each time CCL comes to Penang, all we do are just to stay at home and play game but this time its different. He got himself a camera and Penang is a damn good place to take photo. Mountain, sea, forest, old buildings.. u name it i think Penang has it... so this trip of his has turned into a photo shooting trip. Well i think he likes it and so do i... it feels great to be out from the house and from work once awhile. Not to mention i did felt more emotionally relax after that trip ^.^

well to those who are interested in seeing my photographic shame, it's all here so fel free to drop by and comment ^.^

Meaningful Sat

A big WOW and a pat at the back for the Leech. I've spend less than 2 hours today in front of my PC (minus the time now tat is). It's been such an eventful Saturday, a Saturday that i don't think i've ever had since... erm... erm... er... may be since my days in Uni... or not, but today is very eventful that i really need to write it down to remind myself this is how life should be lived and not endured.

Work up about 620am this morning but i went to bed at 140am so it's kinda blur for awhile, to get ready for a football match. Please note that i don't event play football, i don't even play any forms of sports... i only agreed to go because it's some sort of a team departmental social gathering and i wanted to go to snap some photos. Not to mention i'm holding Czet's water bottle as he left it in the lab the previous night.

So i got there, late... i left my wallet home and i was already at the 5th floor... anyway.. i got to USM field and i'm already seeing some of them warming up. What seems to be a 4 on 4 quickly turned into a 5 on 5 when Chun Sion arrived, to make the number even i agreed to join. Me as playing football, i think the last time i actually played was somewhere in early Form4 which was some time around 11 years ago. During the 1st half it was 1:1 and later in the 2nd half it was 3:3, i can't remember who scored but i do remember that 1 of the goals was by Jeff, it was an own goal... hehehehe... well after the match we went for breakfast and boy do we look like some middle aged men. We were at a coffee shop sipping from our cups with some reading the papers and we were talking about the recent news and some history lesson...

After breakfast i went to the Tesco for some shopping as i'm low on food supply and after spending another 2 hours (i think is 2 hours, i didn't actually keep track) i went home and i was beat... i think i feel better last week even after that hike. Well i got home and washed my dirty shoes and just before i could go for my bath, my housemate told me that they are planning for a steamboat later tonight. So we went for another round of shopping, this time at the wet market. We got back and we started preparing the food. And i don't mind telling you that we just finish cleaned up about an hour ago, that's why i'm writting such an elobrate blog... i'm so full that i can't sleep... not to mention my hair is still wet... damn after one whole day, i finally can take a bath... and i'm now damn sleepy too... full + wet hair... dymn~~~~

Anyway this is really a good Saturday (notice that i'm using Saturday instead of weekend, because i might need to go back to the lab for some work... hopefully is just a "might" ) Oh ya... today really made me realize something, i can spend a day outside of home, away from PCs and work ... really enjoyed myself today. I think i should do this more often... i am .. human... ... rite?

CNY Gambling

"I think it's a Chinese culture to gamble. Chinese can gamble on virtually anything."

I remember hearing this quote from some TV show sometime ago but i can't really remember where or when. But seriously it's rather true. Chinese does like to gamble and talking about gambling, the one and only time when gambling is "legal" in family POV is during CNY. Most families wouldn't allow their child to gamble on other days (well at least in my family) but on CNY, everything goes and it usually with a classic saying "Once a year"

Anyway i've stop gambling, even during CNY. Reason??? I've once gamble with my secondary school buddies and i lost a bundle... It was more than 4 years ago (may be longer), we were playing "chor dai dee" sorry i can't make it out in English so to those who knows, please educate me on this. We were playing 1 cent per card and i manage to lose more than 1 dollar plus... 1 cent a piece and i manage to lose 1 dollar plus... can u imagine the losing streak i was having. So on that day onwards i told myself not to gamble again ... and i was able to abide to this lil vow i made... until today ...

Well we had a secondary school buddies gathering today, started off at my friends shop for lunch before moving to Vincent's place. And to this guys, gambling is as part of their event as drinking. So we played a few rounds... And to my suprise i was in the zone. We started with some rounds of Blackjack where each of us took turns to be the banker and then moved on to Chor Dai Dee again. And to my suprise i was winning. It is the first time i really played again and i won... i actually won haha ...

Just wanna brag about it, i mean most of you will play and win right? But to someone who dont actually enjoy gambling, it was a great day for me ... Hey i started with RM2 and i manage to get ~RM25 when i left, and all this in about 3 hours of game.

And to bring me back to reality... ... ... i'm actually in my room now, working ... doing some waveform post processing + some Eye diagram for sATA ... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~~~~~

A fish trip

Last weekend was a long and nice weekend. It was a trip with my fellow mates for a fish hunt. It is also a part of our belated celebration for Deric... but the food is more important not forgetting it's also a part of our gang's gathering





CK came and ask us to go for a Soon Hock or Marbled Goby trip and we've been planning ever since. Got to the mainland about 230 and by 330 we were already in a cybercafe reliving and reminding ourself what our teenage days were like. We went DotA-ing hehe... and then we were off....


We got to Selama, Perak, lead by CK. I must say he is good in remembering roads. He chose the inner roads and avoided the tolls which means we were now in unfamiliar grounds. Yet he knows exactly where to turn, there is not even a thing we could use as a landmark and he is driving as if he knows it like the back of his hands.


Anyway i'll cut the yapping share the food hehe ...





Soon Hock's meat texture... yummy. Once you bite into it, the meat spreads and it almost feel like crab meat but it's more fine n juicy.. kodus to the cook.



The damage~~ ouch~~

Old, old friends gathering

It was saturday nite and i was in KL. It would seems to be kinda stupid if i were to stay at home that nite so i decided a friend. After a few phone calls i was asked to go to another friend's bachelor nite. I gived it a thought and had a "what-the-hell" moment, so i went.

When i arrived only i notice how long it has been since i saw some of them, some almost 10 years. And little do i know, i was "invited" the be the wedding buddy, a last minute invitation to an event that i shouldn't decline so i accepted. Well it could be fun, MBS culture again. Later we were all there with beers and some wine there, crapping about all the shit that happen back in the old school days. Damn can't really believe that it's been so, so, so, long ago.

We chit-chatted till 230am before going home to hit the sack before waking up early the next day to give my lil Goldielocks there a quick shower.

Well more updates on our old school dinner next time ..

District 9

It time for me to give another movie comment ... this time it is to the movie District 9. Overall i would give it a 3.8 to 4 out of 5 for story line and for others... ... ... well it is a twist (it seems that my last movie was a twist too) . Again it is Meng who came up with the idea of a movie at around 230 pm TODAY to watch a movie TODAY...

Well if u gonna watch this movie make sure u are on the last row and hope you bring a long plastic bag, just in case u nid to throw up... i got all dizzy after bout 40 mins of the movie, and spend 40% of time rest of the movie with my eyes closed, 20% listening to the plot and the other 20% ACTUALLY watching it.

Please dun get me wrong. The movie plot was actually very good, it's just that i think they need to work on the "presentation" part of the movie... It's way too shakey and too "documentary" haha ... Hey this movie actually scored a "A-" on Yahoo's movie review.

Anyway i dun think this post will mean much since this movie is kinda old...

Fish out of water

I think we all have that moment before, the moment where you would shout in your inner mind "What the hell are you doing here??!!" and "What have you got yourself into??". Well i had just one of this evening just today. There was this little gathering organized by the GTs and accidently i got myself invited to it. Initially i thought it could be fun, i mean going to met new people and stuff, something that i've not done in a very long time.

But least to my expectation is that... well i'm old. I no longer have the gift of the gab and i no longer able to mingle freely among the them as easily as i once could. Could it be because i'm kinda tense lately, thus making me a little isolated? I don't know. Going there and i found out that the youngest member is only 23 and i'm 26. Is there a gap between us? Hope not.

Anyway we ate and chit chat a little but most of the time i was just there standing, if it weren't for FR i might have died of loneliness and solitude. I enjoyed my time there but at the same time i feel odd... if there is another of such event, should i join ??

P/S no picture from me today... i took a few shots but it's still in my camera and i'm kinda lazy to upload it just yet... but come to think of it i might not post them either.... herm...

Lunch as an ... ... ...

Arh... i'm finally at the comfort of my home, er... i think.... #yawwnnnn~~~~# Another 7-11 day again in the office. Anyway back to my lil' post of the day.

Had lunch with the new members today and of all the identity i go as, i went as an "intern" hahaha... Yupz, they introduced me as an intern in their dept and i went along with it all the wayyyyyy. Cant believe i still can to pull it off, but i did make some mistakes like thinking too hard (i'm chairing a meeting after lunch), and knowing too much about company "I".

Over at lunch, i am very suprised at the amount of people that came, we basically have 5 tables which is about 20 person showed up. It is really a wonder how good friends they are, may be from uni and may be from their training classes but i can't say the same for me. At least after the end of my N.E.O. and my training i am still a nobody among all the new the members from my batch... and after a year, i'm still a nobody.

Anyway, overall it is a fun lunch they had some good jokes and i too played along. One of their friend did ask my buddy about where is her buddy. I was there yet i was not hahaha ... fun ~~

RM6 worth of entertaiment

By the looks of the title i guess you would have guessed that it is a movie and it is a movie. Yes, as "kayu" as i am, i still go for movie, if asked that is hehehe... (hey i'm an introvert person).

We went for a add hog movie, well we basically decided to go for a movie at around 7 and decided on the movie on the based on possible seats available. The show we selected, Obsessed. How should i rate this movie ... erm... gimme a minute... ... ... ... (5 seconds gone)
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.. ... ... ... (and... well u get the picture hahahaha )

Well to wrap it up, it is a RM6 worth of movie, AM and I concluded that if you were to pay RM10 for it then you'll start using foul words as soon as you leave the cinema till you fall asleep. BUT if you pay RM6 for the movie, you would think that it is a new flavor. Well the movie plot is not exactly what you would expect from a cinema-grade movie so it's kinda refreshing. Yet again, it shouldn't have been a cinema-grade movie in the first place (this is totally my personal P.O.V.) it looks like some plot that would come from T.V.B series.

Oops... hope this post won't cause a decline in tickets hehehehe ... but what the heck the money to goes into my pocket anyway so .. .. .. who cares :p

Belated Bday Celeb ...

Well it's a belated bday celeb alright... but its a belated bday post haha... it's been more than 2 weeks now since my bday and ... well, i can't say that i didn't care ... i guess i'll blame it on my laziness again haha, i guess we can blame virtually anything on laziness :p...

Well this year is quite a special bday for me... coz within 48 hrs i've had 3 different bday cakes from 3 groups of people, first being my bro and my new sis, where they bought a beautiful and tasty chocolate cake. Too bad i wasnt able to sit down and enjoy it to the last piece as i was rusing back to Pg; 2nd from some Ernie n WY, where they bought a last minute cake; and last but not least my colleagues.

Well with the cake, they need a hero right ... so here he is


OMG, seriously... i can't begin to imagine how many of u feel like strangling my right now wuakakaka.... but as if i care :p

We had a short and simple celeb at the cafe but it was fun haha.... thx to all

A family of 5

It's 28th of Feb 2009 and i now have another sis haha ...
Yupz... my bro on the hot seat with my cousins
Yippie my bro is now officially wed instead of legally haha. So now i got a sis, well sister-in-law but still a sis right?

The few days of bro's wedding was a rush. I hardly slept and was busy running all around. There were tonnes of thing to do and the list just kept on growing. But alas, its all over haha... The wedding is over, the dinner is over and my bro and sis are on their honeymoon.... as for me... ... i'm still the same ol me... now sitting in front of the PC n blog about my past activity hahaha....

Alas... gratz bro
My sis, my bro and i

P/S: i finish this post on 030309 but din upload it coz can't find the pics hahha...

DMH class of 03 reunion - PG gang

This happen quite some time ago just that i was kinda lazy to write about it. I met up with Kelly over lunch and she told me that there will be a gathering among the ourselves soon and asked me to spread the word. The first thimg on my mind was "wow it has been so long... it's gonna be fun" but when i was told of the venue and time...well its kinda a dissapointment.

Time: 6.30 pm
Date: 13/02/2009 (Friday)
Place: Autocity
OMG~~~ its a friday and u want to go over the Penang bridge??? U must be joking man... but after some negotiation we manage to bring it over the bridge and brought it to QBM instead hehehe... and to my suprise the organizer was SuMei.

On that day i had a vry long meeting which lasted till about 7 and i was super late. Everyone was in Sakae Sushi n having a good meal when i arrived. Luckily for me, i still remember everyone and everyone still remembered me but to Ernie, Deric n Meng... well they are not that luckly, most of the attendee nid a short reminder course before they can recall them. But nevertheless we had a good time catching up with each other

We went from Sakae to Dragon-i for round 2 since Emily is still absent from the gathering but too bad is that Bobbi, HM and Keen Choong nid to leave early... but it is still good that we manage to met up

Round 1 @ Sakae
Just the guys (i'm snapping the pic so i'm excluded :p)
Just the ladies (too bad HoiMin is not here... )
Everyone Round 2 @ Dragon-i

Thx to all that attended :p
P/S: i just noticed that Bobbi is missing from the photos too... so i added another pic hehe

Fun reunion

Yesterday was a blast haha... I was suppose to drop by Sony to visit everyone but the "big bro" up there din allow it. The sky was dark and gloomy, this makes my journey impossible since the only transport that is available to me is my ol' bike so we gotta reschedule. The rescheduled location was at 1U, Dave's something. The food was great but the best part is the price hahaa... quite expensive but maybe its just me, the Pizza we ordered was ok, RM37 that is not too expensive then the steaks... well i think the price is still ok... well not my prob i only ordered a cup of drink and share the pizza with all.



Over there, i met a new member of PWB, Jay. Well tis is truely a fuker hahaha... he's can rubbish so much that he rubish so much that he actually fooled around with Ms Ta et al during trial hahaa... damn i like tis guy. They were saying that luckily i left else the whole DTS will crumble and i do second that :p. Over dinner we did a lot of idiotic stuff which made me wonder, is this a proper way to treat a new membe?? and my answer is.. Oh yea~~ Even though i'm no longer an official member of DTS but inofficially i'm still a part of that team so i dun care hehe.. as long as there is a victim i dun mind :p



After dinner we went to McD to further our "discussion" we talk about the stupid things that everyone did during trial and we had some great laughs. We also share some less that happy moments, well basically is them telling me, i only listen. And till now, SMing still can't stand it whenever we talk about Sharon which till today i dun understand why. We continue till about 140 where Wong called "reminding" SMing of the time haha... i guess we did went overboard, chit chatting till so late at nite but still i enjoyed every moment of it. I think i should do this more often... which means i nid to come back more often haha... well IBX is coming in 3 weeks time then its bz, bz and more bz till WW52 which means end of this year... i wonder will i b able to find time to come back sighh~~ well i'll try haha... ciaoz


Well i'll update this post with pictures later hahaa... left my camera at my uncle's place wuakakakaa

Farewell

Hello, i wish to tell you that i'll be leaving to malacca to work next month

This is the message i recieved from TienKai about 2 weeks back and at the same time i replied

Hello, i wish to tell u that i'll be leaving to penang to work next month :p

So last friday we came out to celebrate have a farewell for TienKai. Many of us came, Lee, Walter, Wah, Joanne, Phaiklin, Justina, FattSeng, Keng, and Ninku hahaa.. and well it was fun.

Its our first official gathering since convo or should i say since graduation last May (at least for me) . Phaiklin still kept her giggle, Justina looked like a Cikgu, FS seems have loosen up a lot since the last time we met , Keng still likes to bully Phaiklin n Justina, blah blah blah... As we were sitting close to each other, i spend a lot of time chatting with them. And when i told them i too was going off well... it came as a suprise hehe... i guess May is a good month to move on hahaa

After dinner we went to for 2nd round and continue our "discussion" but that was just with a few of us, Phaiklin, Jus, FS n keng went home. We just talk n talk n talked till about 1 am b4 leaving, from this little gathering i manage to update a lot of stuff around them, at least i knew more stuff about them that i initially knew about them when we were coursemates haha... i guess ppl changed after joining the working community

Anyway the oni regret i have is not to have brought my camera to capture this moment. Sigh~