Top speed~~

After driving my goldielocks for 10 months, i've reached yet another top speed record... and its damn scary one. My initial top speed record was 150 that i achieved last june @ penang just as i return back to the North South Highway and even that i only touch 150 mark, i din do anything to maintain that speed. This time i did 158 - 160 on the KL-Seremban Highway after i drop my parents at LCCT. I was rushing back to office so i really floor my accelerator... i watch as my meter goes higher n higher till it kenot go anymore at about the 158 mark but then i was too bz watching the road. At that speed all things comes like lighthing and my car is not that sturdy of a car... any accident could be my last.

LCCT - BB Bangi in 20 mins my most crazy speed record to date in goldielocks... i doubt i'll be able to break this record coz its at its max performance (unless i start to play around with its internals hehehe...)

Farewell

Hello, i wish to tell you that i'll be leaving to malacca to work next month

This is the message i recieved from TienKai about 2 weeks back and at the same time i replied

Hello, i wish to tell u that i'll be leaving to penang to work next month :p

So last friday we came out to celebrate have a farewell for TienKai. Many of us came, Lee, Walter, Wah, Joanne, Phaiklin, Justina, FattSeng, Keng, and Ninku hahaa.. and well it was fun.

Its our first official gathering since convo or should i say since graduation last May (at least for me) . Phaiklin still kept her giggle, Justina looked like a Cikgu, FS seems have loosen up a lot since the last time we met , Keng still likes to bully Phaiklin n Justina, blah blah blah... As we were sitting close to each other, i spend a lot of time chatting with them. And when i told them i too was going off well... it came as a suprise hehe... i guess May is a good month to move on hahaa

After dinner we went to for 2nd round and continue our "discussion" but that was just with a few of us, Phaiklin, Jus, FS n keng went home. We just talk n talk n talked till about 1 am b4 leaving, from this little gathering i manage to update a lot of stuff around them, at least i knew more stuff about them that i initially knew about them when we were coursemates haha... i guess ppl changed after joining the working community

Anyway the oni regret i have is not to have brought my camera to capture this moment. Sigh~

Emo moment at work

Actually this kinda happen few days back, 2 days back to be exact, but i can seem to find time (or mood) to blog it down and to me i do think its something that i should b doin.

Well it begin wif something like this... I got a call from and old friend, Has, asking me for my reply but i couldn't coz i nvr got any infomation and just i was in the middle of the conversation they saw me... Lee n SMing saw me talking on the phone and according to them i looked serious and after taking that call i was kinda nervous till i can hardly sit down n do my work... and just as it seems to die down, i got another call... and it was THE CALL... ... My feelings?? Anticipating. My reaction?? Stunned... in all i was lost.

After that was over i was in dilemma... i was in a dilemma of should or should i not tell them, if i do tell them, how should i tell them? But i took up the courage and faced the music. I told them wat they should know. Somehow in admist of the telling process, well i kinda felt emo... We've laughed, we've cried, we've worked and we've been goofing around for almost a year now so i can't help to feel kinda emo... That was the longest and the most ugliest moment as a working adult.

Seriously i doubt that any of my colleagues will drop by here n pay a visit but if they do... ... well i'm definately toast hahaha~~

Things that are unsaid but doesn't mean that they dun exist... ... when the time's right it'll be all revealed

Numero uno, i'm not

I should be blogging about somethng nice but somehow i got something on my mind that i just wanna share out...

After living got this 25 years there are just something about me that i can't seems to understand. Why am i always second best to someone else? Why aren't i among the top groups? Why do i always have to satisfy with only being 2nd best? Aren't i good enuf to be the best? Or am i just modest? Or izzit its just the way i am... ... ...

All my life growing up, i've never hoped for the best coz somehow deep down in me its like i won't be able to make it, won't be able to achieve the best of the best and tis goes for everything, from knowing people, right down to taking charge and being the leader. I've never thought of going to know the prettiest girl in school or having them to know me, may be that's y i've never got to know those "goddess-like" girls in uni; i've never thought of getting the best grades, may be that's y i was never on the dean's or president's list; i've never thought of anything good would happen to me, may be that's y i always works harder than most people to get wat i wan,... never... ever... am i being modest or am i lack of self confidence?

Whenever i wanted something i would go all out giving 250% of wat i have to try to achieve it but i've never dreamt of achieving the best or getting the best of anything, i would only aim for 2nd best, even when going out to know girls i wouldn't go to know the pretties one coz i would think that it is possible. Sigh~ wat is wrong wif me. I've learned not to put all eggs in a basket and may be that's y i've never put too much hope for things to happen to me, the more support i get the more stress i feel coz i would feel like letting them down if i fail to achieve it, in school and even now at work...

Why am i so negetive in life? Why couldn't i just believe that good things CAN happen to me? I have bunch of friends and family who always supports n believe in me in wat ever i do yet i do no shot the stars when i'm down at the fields. Why do i always thinks that i'm only 2nd best ? With attitude like this sometimes i wonder will i ever be the person i hoped i would... will i ever find some1 who will like me for the me tat i am... will i be the best of the best at wat i'm doing... Will i ? Or will i just be... ... 2nd best...? And with all the negetivity in play, i've manage to find a way to smooth my roaring emotions. I have another personal quote;

If one never hoped, one never dreamt; and thus never dissappointed.

This was the thing i told my colleague when he ask me about my little trip few weeks back, and like i've been telling my friends, if i cant be an Int hero, so i'll just use a Str hero to continue fighting. Which brings me to another quote the i've modified from Plato

Only the dead has seen the end of war, so we must keep on fighting