Short trip to Nilai

Well today is our little gathering cum farewel to Chiun, who's going to leave to UK tis sun morning, and YF, who leaves to the states on july. The gang decided to wait at mid valley at 530 so after i've finished watever i need to do at windz place (we were discussing bout our FYP) i met up wif Chiun at Wangsa Maju station. From AJ i go to know that Chok Chuin did not clear thus he won't be going to UK.. sad news... sad news indeed...

When we got to Mid Valley, we went to McD n waited there... While waiting we go ourselves a sunday.... After HY arrived we waited for FP. When she arrived, i guess she din see us coz she went into McD looking for us, HY n i were laughin outside haha... how could she miss us?? Well may be is the crowd in front of us thus she over looked. Well we moved on to look for YF. When we found her she was bz wif her stuff and HY went to MPH which later i followed, i went to look on some books that i hope would be of some help to my project. Saw some interesting titles such RFID toys and BlueTooth Toys... interesting but no.

Later when i got back, YF turn to my side and said "Wait for CH to... " then she scared herself. Without her knowing, i was already by her standing side. We went to Little Penang to have our dinner and then called 018 that we'll b paying him a visit. While eating we behaved like we own the place, making a lot of noise tis n that.. haha. After our meal we went of to HY's place coz FP is going to park her car there. We start our little journey at bout 8 or 815 i think.

While on our journey, we still continue to make a lot of noise.. haha i guess birds of a feather, flocks together. Suddenly Chiun rmb bout the little scene from Shrek II. "R we there yet?" both of us went on and on until it annoyed almost every1 in the car, even after he stop i kept on goin which resulted in a slap haha... The whole journey was fun, we talk bout a lot of rubbish stuff like we used to.. Sometimes i really miss the miss calls we like to pla etc haha...

When we got to 018's place.. wow the place looks great. The hse was huge but when we got in.. haha i was shocked. The living room is full of stuff, from ladder to tool box to climbing equiptment haha.. when fatt told us that they install almost all the electrical application at the house i was suprise. I guess tis fellas really put wat they learn into real application haha. The best part was that he's housemate owns a personal DC power supply, a DMM, and a Tektronix scope.. tis hse is really a heaven to those engineering student who is keen to have hands on.. really a master piece.

Later we went to get ourselves a burger, as HY n YF was walking to the door, suddenly 018 push the door and force both of them out trapping them in between the doors. It was funny looking at wat he did hahha.. locking them in between, no where to go. We told FP who was slowly untanggling the rope to finish untanggling first. While outside, both HY n YF was shouting n knocking on the door which was really funny hahah.. they din expect to be lock out by 018 hahah.. thinking back it was really funny hahah..

Went across the field to the burger stall n ordered some burgers. WHile waiting HY actually ask to borrow a bicycle that was there. YF n FP took turn at the bicycle too. When the burger was done we went to one of the seats on the feild n ate there. Oh yea, i should mention that the field was great, the stars look wonderful there and the air feels so clean. 018 told that when this place first launch each unit only cost 140k which was relatively cheap. Too bad i'm still jobless, if not i sure will consider haha..

Well after burger and a lot of chit chat we decide is time to go since i got class next day. We went to take some photo at the field and some inside the house haha. From the time we dediced to leave till the time we ACTUALLY leave.. its minimum 30mins more...aih... but nvm since its been sometime since i last saw ah Fatt . Got some funny pic of my but too bad i've not got them yet.. mayb later haha

I guess i won't be posting any photos tis time.. hehe.. till next time ..

Season of Loneliness

If i've ever wonder how is like being lonely.. today is a vry good example. After class i was in the library finishing up on something. Later i went to DSA n had a chat wif the officer. The chat lasted for sometime, and it started raining vry heavily. I have no where to go so i sat there n waited. The dance club committees was there n i know most of them but as they were bz preparing for their event next week so i din spend much time talking to them. Anyway, the loneliness part is not tis. May be it is.. ... well u see, i was there sitting there like an idiot nobody came to talk to me, nor did i went n talk to them. The room just felt so cold all the sudden.. is like nobody care a damn bout u and ur just stranded there... As i din bring along any text book, i can't study, i din wanna go back to the library since its raining, and i cn't do much bout my FYP so i just sat there. Did some mumbo jumbo stuff like the society missing members etc but when i was done i was lonely again. There is just such a void in me that ... ... well feels so empty n sad. I guess tis is wat loniliness feels like.

Having such a feeling i can't help thinking bout something else. All the sudden i feel like i dun belong anywhere. Nobody seems to know or care bout me when there is nothing going on; i can't help feeling that my presence is only felt whever there is a crisis or havoc going on. I'm the type of person that would jump in, make it happen, moderate the flow and then dissapear into thin air again without having people knowin that i was gone or knowing i was even there. And after an event is over, my existance will be wipe off the history books... To be unknown is nothing; but to be forgotten.. ... ... is worse than death.

Here lies
the unknown,
unheard, and
unseen
entity only known as Leech... ... xxxx - xxxx


Another thing that is borthing me is that, today is the 2nd time i bump into SC and somehow is like i can't squeeze a word in. Is like i'm no longer welcomed in her frenship circle.. wel mayb is just me being too sensitive but i can't help it. I just can't help it if i'm getting a negetive aura from friends... i feel so .. ... uncomfortable, so uneasy.... an icky feeling. I dunno wat happen but i intend to find out, may be after the showcase as she's also involve in it. Anyway i think it doesn't matter as i need to focus more on my thesis that all these things; yet when come to think of it. Is it worth it to lose a fren just because of academic?? Ez question but a twisted answer.

Before i end, i found that there is a song that could represent how i'm feeling, its the chinese song by Lin Dan, "Yi ke ren shen wuo", Survive alone. (I might have got the singer's name wrongly)

Feelings.. y r u back?? I thought i've put u away so that i do not have to feel again.. but how come ur back??? Dealing wif feelings n emotions can really wear u down ... ... ... Be strong, stay focus n execute!!!

English is not only a language; its an art

Today is the 2nd day i attend the progressive writting course and its been both entertaining n educating. I've learn quite a number of Rule of Thumb to use while writting and it has further reinforce certain things that i've been praticing. Hopefully at the end of this 4-day course i'll be able to produce a better writting that all my current work; i know i will but to what extent? Only time will tell.

Anyway today in class i manage to have some chat wif an old fren of mine. Old fren is in a sense that she is among the first girls i got to know when i joined the uni; she's one of the groupmate during our orientation ice breaking. Shu Huin is the name and i've always found her to be sweet n frenly. I went to tell her that is seem suprisin that we've known each other for such a long time but has nvr took the effort to get to know each other, even each others' name. Well hopefully after today we'll be able to have more chatting chance in uni haha...

Later after the class ends, i went to met up wif Kenny n TTL. We went to LowYat, i wanted to get an USB interface card coz my onboard USB is dead, TTL wann get a new HDD and help his fren send something for warranty and kenny was doing some info gathering. Later Kenny ask us whether wanna go for a drink coz his fren called him up, well its ok wif us so we agreed.

We met up wif his fren, a sweet, pretty n friendly girl who was his primary skool fren. We had some laughs due to our marvelous sense of humour. I found out that she actuallys stays vry close to my area haha.. may be there's a chance that we'll bump into each other sometime haha... When it's time to leave we offer to walk her to her car, and luckly we did, she parked her car in an unpleasant area which is truely dangerous for a young lady to be walking alone. All of us warned her telling her not to park her car in tis area again and if she has to then make sure she leave b4 sunset.

Later we went for a 2nd round n Nailis. By then it was alread bout 9+ and we haven't had our dinner. I ordered the Nailis Burger Big Bite... well it looks nice but the meat was kinda salty. Nice but salty... bout 11 we all went our separate ways coz TTL is complainin he's sleepy.

Went i got home i got a phone call from TTL.. he went screaming that his PC dun have SATA II port.. i went to scold him saying that if he dun have SATA why the hell he wanan buy a SATA HDD?? aihh...

I was backstabed...

Today Liz ask me give her some directions to Sg. Long campus for a meething, since i've nothing better to do so i agreed. When we got there we went for brunch at a little shop. While challenging her she shot a "pearl" (those blk thingy u put in drinks) at me together wif some of the drink.. the pearl hit my shirt n leave a green mark on it ... i should hve known better that play wif her ... haha... stupid me ..

While she was having meeting i called NiteCat, since i'm in the area. While waiting for her i went to the lib and i was suprised... the library looks neat n big haha unlike mine. When she arrived we went to the lobby n chatted for some time. After Liz finish her meeting n sat down i started introducing both of them. When Liz decided is time to leave n while we were walking to the exit, suddenly out of nowhere i dunno wat happen she started talking bout going for movies which was totally fine wif me n NiteCat. I leave it to the ladies to discuss coz i'm not the one driving and is NiteCat's choice to follow o not.. so i went to the gents.

After i got out, Liz starting mumbling a lot of stuff at me saying how bad i treat her, how tis n that.. i was left in the dark. As she explain i started to get the picture. NiteCat must have told her how i was like to her last time when i was there. We n the SoTalk gang went for satay and both of us went for movies... Liz keep going on n on bout how bad i was to her and all i said that i'm vry good to her.. while i'm not arguing wif her hahaha.. honestly i dun know... am i so bad ?? =_=''' Anyway since somehow i promised nitecat a movie and i din live up to it her movie ticket was on me and somehow Liz manage to squeeze another fault to me and... wat the heck is monday and its once in a blue moon.

While drivin to Mines, the ladies was talking where good to eat n liz was ready to squeeze another round from me which i just acted plain dumb haha... At the cinema we decided to went wif Persidon which is not a bad choice... the movie was great, it really plays wif the human emotions n start to make u think.. Wat if it happen to u?? Wat will u do?? Overall i would rate it a 8/10 i think. After movie we sent NiteCat home n i got a bit hungry so we went to have something to eat at the hawker center. After meal n some chitchat we left.

While driving back to campus (since my bike is there) Liz n i started talking and i really can't help to agreed wif what SC once told me, Liz n i are really quite similiar. We think alike and we have bout the same attitude towards our work... she is almost a mirror of me. We share the same feeling bout how some ppl can b so bloody good in studies wif almost no effort. We share the same opinion on how things r suppose to b handle and a lots more stuff. Which makes me started thinking.. I really wanna put in some effort n teach Liz some of my management stuff since i see potential in her but she dunno how to use it.. so i do plan to help her to bring out the best in her. Trouble is.. HOW?? hahaha.. who am i to mentor someone?? i can't even take care of myself haha...

Loneliness ain't scary... but solitude is

Had a lot of time to think lately... i got nothing much to do since its the sem break. Dad is using the PC, i'm kinda lazy to do my FYP since i've not have any reliable information so i resort to the next thing to waste my time... i start to think; u'll be suprise at the amount of time i spend thinking about almost everything that had happen around me recently. But it usually goes down to a few thing, namely my personal development, my frens, and my love life (if i have any) and at some point it usually frustrates me.

Actually wat am i?? I mean, ppl always goes around telling that u r unique and u hve strengths that some1 else doesn't and those sort of shit but when i do sit down n think, i cant really think of any of my strengths that surpass all else. Some ppl could just study a single nite n pass the tha paper while it took me 3 whole days n nites to study and yet i came out wif a "D"; some could just go and charm himself a soulmate all within a month and i can't even come close to getting to know some1 deeper given a year period. Some could spend 2 sleepless nites completing tasks given while i'm already a dead fish after the 30hr mark. Some could keep their focus at their homeworks even at home while i can't even concentrate whenever i'm at home. There is a saying "One type of rice breads millions kind of people" well u r not going to get an arguement from me on that but i just cant help it.... Why am i so much inferior to them? What is my strength compare to them?? Yes i'm highlighting the best of ppl around me but the point is that they r something i'm not, they've achive something while i'm still a nobody.. the only thing that i dare to say that i'm better than them is that i'm a workaholic.. and is that a good thing? U tell me ... I can't understand wat is wrong wif me.. I got a brain that just stop functioning when i leave my work place (ie skool)

Was chating wif YK ytd n she brought up a good point... how am i going to get myself a GF wif attitude like tis.. i can't help to agree.. i mean i'm bloody passive, i dun even dare to call up ppl coz i scared that i might disturb them .. i mean come on... WTF is this... All i do is to use words n letters to convey my msg around without directly talking to any1. Talking bout getting a gf... i've decided to stop all my feelings from now on since the signal i've been getting recently has been less that encouraging ... I mean no use longing over somehting u can't rite. So i might as well close the file, just move on n concentrate on my work w/o looking back. I shall return totally forget bout feelings n emotions once more n forget bout even having feelings. I envy ppl who've found their soulmates, i mean looking at them wif their luv one... the feeling is no doubt warm n comfortable but i think i can live without them. No i have no intention of being a bachelor forever just that i decided not to think bout it for now. Well like the song goes, "yi ran shi peng you" by YuHeng

Sun Tze once said, "Know urself, know the enemy; and you'll shall a win a thousand victories." Well he's right on that but the thing is that i myself dunno wat is wrong wif me .. so how could i win?

To be unknown is nothing, but to be forgotten is worse than death

Cant think of a title for tis

I dunno y but recently i do realy feeled troubled n worried. Reason?? Well is quite simple actually.. first n foremost is coz my FYP... just got news that the title we proposed could prove troublesom for us to complete due to a lot of technical problems, hopefully CCL is able to sort them out... i'm jsut the follower here tis time .. so i jsut do wat i can to perform

the 2nd thing is .. well my family i guess.. dunno y but recently mum n dad r quarrelling even more, n usually coz of small crapy stuff... and the best part, i'm always there, in the middle of it all... #sigh# WHY!!!

the 3rd thing is this.. i just can't understand y that i can't find any1 to call recently. I mean i just wanna call some1 to talk to but i can't think of 1, and when i do, i just dunno how to make the call haha... ironic... i still can't get over the phone phobia thingy that i have (there's a phone phobia?? ) its always like this, i pick up the phone, and while dailing i just like wanna put down the phone n assume that i nvr pick it up... its only if i'm able to finish dailing n it starts to ring i can lose the feeling ... WHY WHY WHY!!!! if tis continues on i wonder how will i be able to court girls hahaha... damn...

Oh yea.. Nightmare has just begun

Went to met wif Choon Seng today.. he was in KL n he ask me out for brunch?? hehe.. well he's certainly a somebody today.. he got somewhere after been working for 3yrs. Good for him. We did some catch up and later it was goodbyes. I got back to uni just to find out that only the MMT supp list was out. After some running around.. i got home n started wif my Maple hehe..

Oh yea.. i was happly leveling until i got a msg... Lo's out... .... ... .... I went to the intranet n look at my reeults.. WTF... i got a D for the damn paper.. i thought i would manage at least a PASS.. but .. @&$^)!$!%^!%#)^$^!@ curse it.. I dun understand.. wat is wrong wif me .. how come someppl r able to just go thru it 1 nite n got thru it fine while i've been cracking my head studying for the damn thing and all i got was a lousy D.. I have to take the supp.. if not my CGPA will go down the drain if not the toilet...

CURSE U!!!!

well enuf of sulking... need to continue to work on the damn thing ... God give me strength

I"m addicted ....

What have they done??? Thnx to Windz n Meng i'm now addicted to online gaming again...arrrrr...

DarkMyst is back.... but tis time the name is spelled DarkMyzt hehhe....

The Memoirs Of Leech 2005 (part2)

Well was going thru my previous post only to found that i've miss out a detail, on 14/2/2005, my hse got ransacked. Bro was at home and when he left he forgot to lock the front gate. The theives just came in, clam open the door and walk out as if they own this place... Bro called me back saying that something happen at hoe, i quickly rushed home n saw the damage. Damn... They run away wif mum's jewellery and those CNY angpow leftover cash.

Well the next thing on my agenda is... ... UTAR Ball hehe. I manage to get hold of a table so was sitting wif a gang of frens instead wif strangers. The ball? sux; the food? sux; the venue?? Lol.. sux... so overall.. the event sux big time... i din quite enjoy myself coz JS was rushing, but the best part was that i was able to meet wif the SoTalk gang and bump into Connie and Anthony, my 2ndary skool frens














My table at UTAR Ball














Some of the SoTalk gang
CityBadGuy, CYSS, Aniki, NightCat n Simmy













Not forgetting...
hikki, Vyy and last but not least.. me.. Leech :p

My sencondary frens ... .... ... err... well i wasn't able to upload my those photos.. dunno y blogspot dun let me post my beautiful fren's photo here. well guys, ur lost heheh

Well, after UTAR Ball there weren't much thing worth remembering since i forgot bout them hehehe... ... OK.. next on the list should be my involvement in blogspot hehe yup.. my first blog in May 2005 hehe.

May... ... yup, there's an orientation that we got involved in... yup.. me again as VC wif Carien as chair. Tis time i got involve in Ice breaking instead hehehe... well the things went quite well too if i do say so myself, except that i have to take the job as group facilitator and also game master which really wore me out..

My first photo wif the all the ladies hehe... dunno should i feel proud or should i be sadden by tis pic














The Wild n happenin - Camy
The Matured n Ladylike - YK
The Elegent n adventurious- Florence
The Pasive n quiet - SC
The Gatekeeper n Arbiter - HC
The Mad n crazy- Liz


The committees n the ME-team













Yup..it also brought along some chain of events such as me being known as 2nd boss, got to know another group of ladies (Jessica n gang), being known as the unbelievable, unbeatable, invinceble ME-team and not to mention later the missing ME-team member














Guess who's missing...

Next brings me to June where we sent KY off to Liverpool. Well, it started out like shit.. (i just read the post hehe) CCL and i were thrown around like a ball... we went to watch Madagscar and later was stuck in traffic for hours before making it to KLIA.

The boss of the nite.. Anchor Phoon wif the big man.. Loon














Well when i got the photos from Windz i found out that some of the photos were missing and they were the photos of ... ... ... so we know somehting was up.. only until later that we were able to found out wat happened and volla... a new grp member ~~ Irene... who she n i had quite a bad experience hehee....

Not long after sending KY to Liverpool it was my lil sis's 21st bday. She had book a room in Genting and ask us to go there to celeb wif her... so we did... Stop by ampang for lunch and then we were on our way. Durin the journey i remember ther was a Kancil who was racing wif us while we r traveling uphill; well wat can i say, an midified Kancil vs 5 man GTI .. who do u think won?? hehe...














At genting it was nothing much to do since we din go to the theme park nor did we gamble, but i did go in to those casinos n take a look at them. Ya.. we went to the arcades n have some game which i almost got addicted to it too hehehe ( i'm a gaming freak)













Game on ^_^

i din get much sleep either while we were at genting... instead of sleeping, my eyes were wide open... later at around 3am, JS, WY n i went to CoffeeBean to have a drink.. not to meantion to have some heart-to-heart talk. They kinda make me promise to "share" my little secrets when we r up there and i keep to end of my bargain. I answer all their questions as promised which turns out to be the biggest mistake i've ever done. I always wonder wat happen to the "It's between us" and the "Not a word beyond these walls" .. #sigh# I got to know their secrets and they got to know mine... well it USED to be my secret but not anymore. Almost any Tom, Dick n Harry knows of it thx to them. Always wondered y i always play by the rules? WHY???

I did say it was for a bday celeb rite? Since we din have a cake while up there, we had a replacement cake cutting session when we got back. Yup.... all was there except for CCL














Well that's all for part 2... later was all boring stuff or izzit??? i need to double confirm hehee so more coming up next time...

Yea... its holiday.... .... ... #sigh#

Well initially i was looking forward towards the holidays coz been bz wif skool work tis n that but now ... ... Its only oficially the 2nd day into my and i'm already bored out of my skin; i'm constantly looking for things to do, trying my best to occupy my time. Guess that after getting use to the hectic lifestyle, having holidays is not such a good idea after all. Which leads me to another thought. Am I so bloody mechanical?? Can't i function outside of working environment? Y cant i enjoy my holiday like everyone else?? Y am i constantly looking for things to do, looking for things to occupy my free time ... Like i've been scolding myself lately, i'm pretty pathetic nowadays, having no life, no frens, no fun... #sigh#

Holidays is suppose for u to relax n rest both ur body n your soul before going on to the next challange but ... ... i can't help it, i just can't help it.. i must have thing to do if not i'll bore to death. Tried to have a pack day by going about here n there meeting frens but still... i got limited frens. On sat went out to met wif NiteCat then went out wif TTL and later had a drink wif him n KKM.

On sun bore myself whole day at home before leaving the hse to give my bro a lift to the bus station, then went to look for my bday fren wif chris, lily, n CCL. It was kinda funny. when we got to Fish's hse she was quite happy n suprise to see us, then when we ask her whether can she go out she just frown... at bout mid nite we decide its time to leave and when we try to ask her to join us for a drink, we got a stern reply from her mum which pretty much scared us hehe. At Steven's Corner i manage to bump into some frens, 1st is that guy from TT then just before we left saw KK and his gang (well not HIS gang but his gang, wif LiCheun, MM n KwaiTeng). Exchange some hellos then went off since Lily was crying to go home.

Today?? Well today is a bad day. Been crackig my head trying to figuring out what can i do to pass my time... in the end, i was looking on the net for my pipe robot project haha... wat a "good" way to pass time... looking for info for my project hahaha.. #sigh# Actually i messaged a fren ytd nite asking whether wanna go out today but i din get any reply so i sulk at home whole day longing for a day to see my flesh rot.. Hope tmr will b a better day that today.. .