Lozer??

Today is the 2nd day we are at North Plant in the cell line.. ytd was a "ball" where we stand from 8 - 6, today was a little better, we only stand from 8 - 3+ but tis is because there weren't too many sets. Anyway that is nt wat i wanna talk about, wat i wanna talk about is wat Vin said.

It was 330 and Lee and i was still bz helpin Nishiya-san wif the set, i think we were closing the set n preparing for adjustment when Vin said something to Lee. He congratulated him on something, when lee asked wat is he congraluting him about Vin said it short, he say that HY n SW will consider him... and then there was a short silence and then we were back to work. As if nothin happned.

Wat got me a little upset was not wat he said but was how it felt that moment. It felt like i was the rejected one... I know they dun mean anything like that in anyway and i 'm not keeping any grudges on them but hey to say things like this could have some negetive impact on a person's self-esteem. Why do i always have to be on the loosing side when it comes to the ladies .. am i such a loser?? I'm a hero in the office but i'm a zero in front of the ladies. Like i always tell my frens, i'm not tall n strong, i'm not smart, i'm not athletic, i'm not rich and most importantly i'm not good looking so in conclusion i'm pathetic loser when it comes to the ladies. I guess there is just something that u can never run and escape from and just to my "delight" that thing is wat i just mentioned.

Am i so bad?? Am i so low quality? Am i only good for a laugh ?? Am i oni good for task ? Will there be a day where i find someone who will see me and accepts me for who i am? Who will that be and when will that day come? Another famous quote from me

"I dunno, i dunno, i dunno"

and with that.. gud nite to all.. time to hit the sack