Love

Its another round of random thoughts from the Leech again... today's trigger... the radio.

While i was driving, on my way home, i was listening to the radio and today its talking about some psychological stuff. But wat that strike me to most is the guy who send sms to the host saying that he has admire a girl for 3 years now, although it doesn't make their encounter awkward but it is kinda tiring (i can imagine why). The guy was asking wat should he do.

Well initially i would expect the guest to say something like "Think is she the one and if she is, go tell her" etc... but instead, she begin by saying that while admiring someone, "it is the best time of your life" and i was like o_O" ... well allow me to elobrate... According the the guess, it is the time where "u'll be living in ur own world thinking and imagining how beautiful it is if u were together" and also its when ur "creativity is at its peak, u'll be able to do some marvelous artwork or handicraft, u'll be able to say the most romantic if not sweetest things".

At this point i was kinda convience coz it makes sense. Anyway besides wat she said about tis, it does makes me wonder... should i call the guy stupid or should i call the guy loyal; i mean he's been admiring the girl for 3 years now, 3 long years it takes a lot of determination to actually keep this admiration alive and to go on for so long, its even more marvelous. The point where i wanna call him stupid is, y din he make any move after all this time? Or has he made his move but was rejected and if it was, wat should i call him then?? Idiot?? Y do u still wanna keep this feeling going on even after she said "No" are u aiming for another big NO slamming at ur face again?? U might think she's ur cup of tea; ur angel; but to her u might not even qualify to hold a candle to her. Or maybe, to her u r just a fren, u may be a good good fren but u r still just a fren.

As for the girl... is she dumb or is she cruel?? How could u not notice a guy that has been admiring u for all this time? Is he such a nobody that u hardly notice him? Or did u know about this but u are hoping that he'll forget u and move on if u keep ignoring him? Is he so bad that u can't consider him to be someone else other than a fren to u?

As usual, there are no rights nor wrongs in relationship especially when it comes to admiration. If s/he has no feelings for u, then no matter how long u longed and wait, it just wouldn't happen. U can't blame those people around s/he coz the decision still lie in s/he hands. The oni thing u can say is, "Why am i so stupid to keep admiring s/he even when i know nothing's gonna happen?"

As blind as love could be, its those who fail to see the signal that causes regrets. To the guy.. u might wanna try to tell her ur deepest feelings for her and hope for best coz this is definately not the way.

Update time~~

Just remembered that i've not updated my blog for a few days... i wonder what happen.. ohh~~~ i remembered... i was out everynight tis past few days. Not having enuf sleep too... *yawn*

On my last post i was saying something about CK in KL.. so on fri we went out again, this time there is another member, Veron... WY manage to get her out so we went for a drink and chatted for some time. Well for excatly some time but for a long time. We oni left the place around 1+ then i got back to CK's hse (coz my car was there) then when i got home + bath + etc.. i slept around 2+ and the night b4 that i slept around 1+ hahaha... 2 nights i oni slept about 7hrs and work 10hrs for both of that day.... oh did i mention that i nid to go to work the next day too. But since its CK so wat to do... not enuf sleep oso nid to go de... brather ma~

Then it was ytd ... ... it was Ben's last day, he resign to go back to hometown coz someone need to be there to attend to his parents. Tough choice, work : family. Wat will u chose? If i were him, i would have done the same... nothing more important than family. Anway we went to have dinenr wif him as a farewell to him. The funny thing is that oni the new members were there. Lee, HY, SM, Wong, MY, Ben and I.

It was a pitty that Ben was goin, he is a nice guy, he had a "wonderful" talking talent like mine too hahaha.. if he continued we would have been vry good frens hahaha and maybe i can clear my name for having the most wicked / deadly mouth in DTS hahaha... The thing i really regret is that i din bring my camera together, else at least we would hav taken a photo together.

To Ben (well i dun think he'll be reading this but wat the heck), have a wonderful future. It wasn't long but its been nice to have know u...

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yup that is wat i feel like each time i login my blog today its nothing but "... ... ..." wat does it mean, it means that its dead. I thought by adding a chatter box i might have more interaction wif my visiting frens but i guess i was wrong... well nvm... i'm used to it

Remember when i say when i dun have appointment i have none and when i do it come in waves? Well i had another such experience again today. Ytd SM ask me whether we wanna go for dinner tonite coz she got a 10% coupon to eat somewhere and i say sure... y not. Then later today i got a msg from the egg asking me to go dinner... then later i got another phone call from CK asking me to go out tonite... hahaah 3 invitations and the best part is, its all happening tonite.

BUT to my advantage... SM forgot the bring the coupon, the egg canceled last min coz she got additional assignment at work and LUCKILY, CK is still coming to find me hahaha... at least i got 1 appointment that i can keep wuakakak.. so wif that i shall end here coz he should be arriving anytime now.

How much do u know me??

Saw this from a fren's frenster and it seem fun so to those who think they know me or u think u know me.. please take some time off and do this test wilya?? I just wanan know..
Create your own Friend Test here

Confirmed?? ... ... .. or not... sigh~~

I got my so called confirmation letter (or should i say notice) today from my boss and i was kidna eager to actually open it. Usually i would save it till i go home but this time is kinda different... as soon as my boss turn his back i was already busy opening the envelop and when i open the damn thing... .... ... my confirmation date is actually next month and i was like...

WTF???!!!
@_@

Its next month and u r giving it to me today?? U are about 30days too early i think... but anyway i guess its ok... at least i know i'm going to be confirmed hahaha... but that means i kenot find other jobs now ... wuakakaka.. jz kidding ... still kinda hapi there and i've just promise myself to step up and finish that damn program b4 moving on...

Keep it up leech...

A geeky dog hahahaa

This is a short test i took after reading it from my cuz .. and guess wat.. i'm geekier that i thought hahaha...

Your Geek Profile:

Fashion Geekiness: Moderate Academic Geekiness: Low Gamer Geekiness: Low Geekiness in Love: Low General Geekiness: Low Internet Geekiness: Low Movie Geekiness: None Music Geekiness: None SciFi Geekiness: None

How Geeky Are You?

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest.However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are!Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk.You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.

What Year Should You Have Been Born Under?

Turning over a new leaf

Today i decided to do something, something for myself in this organization... i'm gonna put all my effort in finishing this program then i'm gonna move on... my boss just give me another assignment which i feel could be a big challange to me so i decided to postpone my proporsal to change dept, instead i'm gonna spend more time on my initial assignment to finish this adjustment programme that i'm suppose to do and at the same time study those design spec. I wanna make full use of my time here in DTS. I'm gonna channel all my time, energy and concentration on this few task so that i won't have time to think of something else, and to take my mind off something.

A mind is a terrible thing to waste

That is something i remember from a movie and recently i've been using my brain for almost the wrong reason... its time to bring myself back together again ... do something i'm good at so i won't waste my time anymore... its time to turn over a new leaf... step back, see and then move forward... dun always stay in one spot... it dun get u anywhere...

A quickie~~

YES~~~ i got a chatter box on my blog.. finally....
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No, that dun come from me... i finally went ahead wif a chatterbox coz my cuz is pestering me about it waukakakaa... YES~~~!! i decided to promote ur "good" deed to the whole world :p and to show that i'm a caring cuz coz i listen to u wuakakakakakaa.... oops... i guess i've blown my cover haha... anyway to those who feel lazy to leave a comment, u can now choose to leave a msg on my chatter box instead now.. so no more excuses for not leaving a comment/msg after visiting my bloggie ^o^

Stupid stupid PC

Guess wat... i've told my seniors ytd that i wish to change department coz it was getting kinda boring here in DTS, i actually feel humiliated when i told Dr Lo that i am a designer but i dun do any EE related design work. I can't just sit around waiting till the end of the month to take my salary.. no i kenot do that, i can't forgive myself. I wish to do something, something that have some level of importance to the organization i work in, something related to wat i've slave away my life studying... Big dream?? no, just pratical... i wan to be a designer that do design not someone who is called a designer but ... ... well u get the idea, its not that my department dun do design, but its not EE related design work... and i can't help but to feel ... odd...

Anyway enuf complaining... today, Gan ask me to study some design stuff asking me try to digest the whole thing and link it to our actual design... its like wat i did previously wif the LVDS just that this time its another different interface. I think i'll make this my goal... study this bloody thingy till i can design, predict and debug it. I wanna be an expert on this... i WAN~~~ although this is not actually design but i at least i can understand the backgroud work to the design... then, may be i'm able to do the design myself next time.

Funny... i just told my seniors about my little intention ytd and today this... o_O
i smell a rat...

well i guess nothing is a secret in the office... wan it to be a secret??? Keep it to yourself :p

Oh not forgetting something vry shitty happen today... my bloody PC fail on me today... i was saving my PowerPoint file when all the sudden, the pc just fail... the screen change to some fuzzy looking thing and the keyboard stop functioning. I tried to restart my pc but nothing happened... it give me a "blue screen" and that's it... NOTHING... oni BLUE SCREEN~~~~~ the members from ESS came to help but still nothing... later i manage to get my pc to work again but to my amaziment... it manage to show me some sign of life for about 5 mins b4 dying on me again... i suspect its either the HDD or the MoBo is gone... damn damn damn... how am i suppose to work tmr??? WTF~~~~~!!!!

HELP~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

1st day @ work

No i din change job but it is my 1st day at work after a long holiday, 6 days to be exact. I've been on holi mood so long that i've begin to get numb... The day at to office went kinda slow coz almost everyone is still in holi mood and the roads is even worse. It took me about half hr to get to office instead of my usual 50 mins... a reduction in 20mins

But we still work... even got some good laughs today when Wong from ED2 came n humor us wif his "Shit" jokes and the best was he ask me this...

well this is wat happen. He came to us asking is to change the heat sink on the board, we ended up asking him to find us a screw drive coz our Person in charge of keeping the screw driver is still on holiday. so b4 he left to get us the screw driver... .... ...

W: How do u call a screwdriver in malay??
L: Pemutar skrew
W: Oh...
(bout 10sec later... ... ...)
W: Then how do u call it in english??
SM & L: o_O".... Screwdriver lo #laughing our socks off#

I can't believe that guy actually asked us that... SM and i was laughing so hard that Lee thinks that we have lost our marbles. I mean everyone is still in holi mode that not everyone is as sharp as we use to b4 the holidays hahaha... i think tmr Wong will regain his sanity hahaha...

Funny, dunny day indeed hahaha :)

Lost

I guess i've gotten a bit moody again after this few days of holiday.
Feeling kinda lost whenever i think about my work;
Feeling kinda being used when i think of WY;
Feel kinda left out and unwanted when i think how "far" i am from my frens even though sometime distance is not the case.
Feel kinda stupid when i know i'm still hoping for something that ain't happening no matter how much i wan it
I just feel ... ... stupid ermm... useless

I guess this is why i dun like long holidays... i begin to think too much about nothing, i dun like having too much time in hand coz i'll begin to think about things about myself: who i am, who i've become, what i've achieved, what i've done, what i've missed and what i've let go... the list goes on and on and on. This kinda reminds me of my previous post Me, Myself and my Blog

Sometimes i feel like the only place i can go to is my own blog, coz in it i'm in my own world... i can just express all i wish to express even though wat i'm expressing is just plain rubbish... i sometimes think...
... will there be a day where i would call a friend asking him/her to come out coz i nid a company and that i'm too sad/down to comfort myself like always?
... ... Will there be a friend willing to that for me as i would for them?
... ... ... What would be the 1st thing that will come across their mind if they were to hear those words coming from my mouth?
... ... ... ...What will be their expression?

You know... i'm not always Mr Tough, there are times where i wish i'm nothing but a worm and i can hide and i can have someone that could come n comfort and nurse me back to health but i know that is a luxury i can't afford to have or should i say i will not allow myself to have. Sigh~~~ i guess i'm too harsh on myself... like the song in my blog, (i'm quoting a verse from it)

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

I really like this song because when u follow the lyrics properly u'll feel that, its not easy being u sometimes... and u'll feel that its better being the guy next to u... the song expresses that... its just not easy to be me...

Hv i finish expressing myself?? erm... well... i dunno... have i?? Haha, i'm asking question that oni i know how to answer, i guess that is just who i am: The Enigma Scale. The variable in a world of constants, the ambiguity admist of crystal clear facts... The unknown, the unheard and the unseen... i am the Leech

Boiling hot~~~

Oh yea... ... he's the king of kool... he can sleep through a airstrike bombardment, he can just sit there in a pressure cooker and not break a sweat... he's none other than the one and oni DTWY

He's suppose to submit the draft today but it's yet to be finished last night. I got his "tut meng chui wan" call last night and i was thinking to my self "Should i even pick up this phone call?" i really took my own sweet time to consider whether should i answer that phone call or not, knowing that if i answer it then there is no return... i nid to go into the abyss but in the end i still pick up that phone. i have a soft heart... too soft... sigh~~~

Went to help him do some minor thesis editing at 9++ till 4++ am i was totally spent since i din get much rest the night before (or any nights b4 that hahhaa) so at abuot 430 i was down for the count, waking up to chek on him once awhile to make sure he's not dead yet.

Got to uni and it was hard work all the way... we were working like mad in the lab but then then when Dr. N say postpone to fri the pace slowed down. and about lunch time i went to a complete stop... i can hardly think wat's wrong wif his circuit, i dunno where to begin troubleshooting not to mention i was kinda 'high'. This continue till about 2+ after he finish his thesis and we went for breakfast... but as usual we ended up talking and talking and talking till about 4++ then oni i can eat... damn damn damn....

WY u really 'dam tim yau chin jing' i respect u... BIG time... but plz dun find me next time of u got another this big bomb, i too old for this :S

Its another Bday haha

12/10 n 13/10 is the bday of two of my good friends too bad is one of them is in Pg so i'm unable to do much celebration but at least i'm able to celebrate wif another hehee. So on 13th i was celebrating the bday of yet another of my uni lady friends bday...

tis time is Green's bday and she choose to celeb it in Times Square coz she wanted to enjoy herself in the theme park but till the end, we din went in at all. Instead we spend our time in the arcades and bowling.

We had our... erm.. i think it was tea coz it was about 330 when i finally got to Times Square, the funny thing is that i din know the roads has changed. While I was driving, i kept looking around coz i dun remember those roads being one way... damn its been too long since i made a trip to Bkt Bintang area.

In Kenny Roger's we were served by a young lad *errk...i can't believe i'm using the word young here!!!* he was kinda new there, he's oni been working ther for 6 days... anyway the reason he was so interesting is because he was kinda nervous, while we were ordering he wasn't able to keep up wif us. We nid to repeat our orders one by one slowly and the ladies was laughing at him (in a good manner) coz it was funny but their laughing might have got him more n more nervous anyway i din wanna fool around so instead of telling verbally, i just pointed at what i wan and let it be over with.

While eating, flo warned me that SY like to pinch people and its really painful so if i were to offend any of them i might get myself in trouble but the oni problem is... ... she's still too new as in she just know me so she dun dare to do anything to me hahah with i use it to my advantage :p being the notty fool i am, i move my face closer to her asking me to pinch me, i even showed her where hehehe, as i felt her getting tempted i quickly move away hahahahaa... i'm evil MAUHAHAHAAA... well hopefully she dun get the idea too quickly else i'll be in deep, DEEP poo-poo

After our meal we went to the arcades. Basically it was all Grn n HC at the games... i was too locked on to the simulator machine. The damn game is like wat we read in the Yugioh comic where the players place their cards on the machine and the computer will simulate the card and the battle... i was totally mesmerized, too hooked to go anywhere else. Damn.. tis is wat i call the power of technology. Uber kool man... totally owned me. Neway back to the ladies... they we into the games themselves too. I manage to take some snap shots of them hopefully they won't kill me for this haha

There they are hoggin up the machine :Þ

After the arcades we went to IMAX hoping to catch a good movie but there aren't any interesting one so instead we detour to the bowling alley. This is my 1st bowling session since my diploma during my days in SOTSWC where we went to Genting after we were elected as the exco for SWC and that was about 4-5 years ago... i was kinda nervous coz i afraid i might make a fool of myself but instead they told me they are all noobs too which made me really relax hahhaa.. N00b vs n00b haha no worries there :p and guess what... ... ... i turn out the be the champion hahahaa... i manage to break my own records too hahaha.. i manage to hit 100pins (111 actually :p) of all my sessions i've oni manage to hit 6x at most but today, after 5 years i manage to hit 100 hahaaha.. damn it felt good haha.. The ball felt right and my hands seems to be listening, all (well most of them) my throws was straights unlike my previous throws where the ball drifts away from my throw direction.

Here we are at the bowling alley in Times Square... SY lost a turn after taking tis photo... haha time expired i guess :p

After bowling, we went to BB Plaza hoping to be able to ride that motion master thingy but we din know the way, so Flo's bro, Benjamin, came to our rescue... he showed us the way to the ride but when we got there it was closed... it was afterall 820 haha. I din think they look alike or anything like that but at 1st glance, u'll know Flo and Ben are related... funny how family could be hahaa.. Anyway since Green is leavong soon (she was going for round3) so we say our goodbyes. Flo and SY went wif Ben and HC, Green and i went back to times square, our car is parked there. There we had dinner and we were on our way. Too bad we din take any group photo though... anyway its not imporant, wat is important is all recorded in my mind and some in my blog :p

6+ hrs of bday celeb... not too bad i think, i wonder how would it be like during my bday hahaha ... but its kinda too far away to think about that... :p

Wait and wait and wait....

Since last month i've done a lot of waiting, i mean for people. There was the wait for HC's bday coz they are attending a training course, then it was chain waiting session during our so-called-farewel for the mouse, then waiting for VT for our dinner and ytd.. i waitied for HY....

The course thingy i can forgive since they are coming from PJ and i'm working in office so i can still cheat some OT hours :p then the chain waiting session... ... ... that's a ball. I arrived at HC's place as promised and i still nid to wait an additional 6-10 mins later we head on to Sc's place for anothe round of waiting, this time about 40mins luckily i got some1 to keep me company else i would have died of boredom later when we got to the mouse's hse there was another 10 mins wait... OMG, i've spend an hr of my time waiting for these ladies =_="

The next wait was from VT... how could a guy spend more than 15 mins in the parking area?? Thong, SM, the Wong(s) and i was waiting for VT n HY to come out of the parking and we waitied for 15 mins...

My final waiting session came from my dear HY.... again i've waited for half hour and tis time i dun have someone to sit next me to pass time. Sigh~~ luckily i was bz arranging for Noraizah's Raya thingy... this time i hope i'm able to get more of the 5S3 guys to pay Noraizah a visit. Its been kinda boring just having me n soo visiting her each year.

Ohh.. b4 i forget, there is a place in PJ SS2 behind Public bank. Its a place to eat, the food was really good, althought its kinda pricy but the food portion and the taste really worth the money. Not the mention it has a fancy layout. Once u r seated u've almost have complete privacy coz the seating area is blocked from plain view so u can enjoy ur meal and urself in private. Sorry coz i dun remember the name but i guess u won't miss it when u are there :p

Love Test???

I can't belive i actually went thru and finish that test, may be a part of me really wanna know hahah.. sometimes i just dunno wat i'm thinking about ahhaah... Anyway i went on doing this love test from tickle *duh...* and guess wat.. i find wat they say kinda true...

My love personality is Essential Companion . When i first read it i was like o_O" coz i was a bit confuse by what that term actually mean but after reading it... well its kinda true... according to them, an essential companion is ... ... (i'll do some cut n paste, coz i lazy to type)

If someone is looking for a genuine, down-to-earth partner who knows how to treat others with kindness, they'd best look in your direction. As an essential companion, you're one who not only respects and values the people in your life, but who makes your relationships a top priority. However, you're usually not the type to try to impress others with fancy romantic gestures.
Nor are you a person who is apt to spend time worrying about your appearance in a superficial manner. If that special someone is willing to take you as you are, you will happily do the same for them. However if they're not, you'll probably keep on walking.

You're probably interested in finding a partner who will be equally committed to things like quality time and genuine communication. That way, the two of you can focus on one another without all the bells and whistles that some people consider an essential part of a good relationship. When you find an individual who feels the way you do about these things, the relationship you create will be a truly special one.

Well i can say that all tis i agree haha, i mean i've always accepted people around me for who they are regardless of their background coz i i believe that everyone is unique and u r who u are. And i truely hope i can find someone who is willing to accept me for who i am too. Like i always tell my frens, i'm not smart, nor handsome, nor rich, nor athletic... (sigh~~ saying this all over again does have an impact on my ego hahaha) i'm just a leech... a walking bag of flesh who just know how to work, work and work with limited emotions, intelligence and soul; not forgetting like to suck ppl's blood for pleasure :[

Just to end this bloggie wif a twist... ... when oh when will i find my true love in this cruel, cruel world... oh~~~ when... ...

ciaoz~ :p

Short but fun dinner

Yesterday, over our 3pm break, out of the blue, VT suddenly ask everyone to go for dinner today. I agreed without much thought coz i truely wanna spend more time wif my colleagues ... but the others... well the others seems a bit awkward since it din actually sounded like an invitation.

So today everyone was still in doubt thinking whether wat VT said was true and when its time to go, Hong said no and he left... later Lee too went home but it was beacause he wasn't feeling very well not to mention it was raining cats and dogs out there. Even i wanan go home to sleep hehee..

Ohh today our new member, ManYee join us too for dinner together wif Wong, well basically both of them are Wong so we called the new guy ManYee instead. It was cool... I think he got to experience the DTS members first hand our madness and haha should i say... 'vulgerness' :p well we weren't vulgar just we used a lot of different jargons in our routine converastion that could make others @_@ .

Sorry if u r anticipating photos coz i din take any :p Hey its just a casual dinner, if photos were included i would be called crazy by them, "Small things like tis oso nid take camera meh~~!" Neway, althought its just a normal casual dinner but it was nice, we had some good laughs after a hard day's at work.

Photo repeats??

Been looking at my frenster photos and noticed that quite a number of my recent photos are of the same group of people although for different reasons but its still with the same group of people. Happening or lonely??? Always with the same group of people, well i dun mean that i dun like their company, in fact i really enjoy my time wif them but it seems to me that i really dun have much frens anymore... the last photo i actually took wif team pilot was bout 5mths back in Ayer Panas jz b4 each other was on their way home to their hometown. Sometimes can't help it but to miss those fukers... they might not be the best buds in the world but they r the gang i've spend most of my time wif in uni and dip. I was suppose to go to pg to find them tis Raya but it seems like i'm unable to arrange for a appropriate time to met them. So i plan to go on Deepavali and tis time i hope nothing happen coz if ffk again i'm as good as dead hahahaa... :p

Counting down my days to deepavali hahaha and raya its not even here yet wuakakakaka~~~

To remember or to forget, which is easier?

Wat do u guys think... which is easier? To remember or to forget? A funny question wouldn't u think? Have u ever been in situations where ppl ask u something and u would go, "Ah... Sorry, I forgot." or in situations where u remember something unpleasent bout a particular person and wat s/he did to u back in ur 2nday dayz. BUT... ... dun worry, that is not wat i meant. Usually u'll forget something that u should have remembered and u'll remember something u wanna forget.

So the question is.. which is easier?? To remember something nice that u wanna playback in ur mind forever; or to forget something that u din even wanna know ever existed. As for me... I can hardly remember how to perform a simple integration operation even thought it was a core activity in by skool days and yet i can't forget something i've told myself over n over again to forget. I can learn to "forget" how to feel and yet once i "remembered" it again, i'm unable to "forget" it again.. I've forgotten how to "forget" how to feel.. i'm unable to supress that feeling and that thought even thought i've told myself to do so. Haha.. anyway that's just an example dun take dat too seriously but its kinda nice to have that skill again, coz there r just times where u just dun wan ur emotions to cloud ur judgement. I just to be able to make stern judgement w/o being effected by my emotions but now, its getting harder by the day .. sigh~~

Anyone of u have an idea on how to forget things that u wanna forget and remember those things that u wanna remember?? Any 'tested n proven' methods?? Care to share :p ...

I wanna forget.... i wanna forget ... I WANNA FORGET~~~~ but i can't... hahah :p

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Have a safe trip~~ Squeek

Have u ever wonder how fast time flies?? Its already been 3 yrs since i got to know the ladies and today, the mouse just went on her Euro trip. I'll try not to be old but.. almost everyone i know in uni is leaving uni and soon... soon the uni is just a memory. There is no more senior-junior relationship among them and may be in a not too far future, those who were once my juniors will be my possible employer, haha.. relly, who knows...

made plans to met wif the mouse b4 she leave for her trip, i actually drove 239.5km on thursday alone. I saw my pertol indicator drop 1 level after another...

My hse -> Bandar Baru Bangi -> Sg. Long -> Bdr Tun Razak -> Sg Buloh -> Sg Long -> Tun Razak -> My hse

Not bad, 239.5km i think i'm almost at Ipoh hahha.. As much pain as i will feel the next time i go to a petrol station i guess its still ok. I mean wat is the price tag on frenship? Mouse, Grn and the nanny are all my frens and to spend some peaceful n quality time together as frens... should i say it as priceless?? Anyway i better not get use to tis kinda behaviour.. the price of petrol is not getting cheaper u know.. i think its now USD 80.32 per barrel or was that ytd??

Neway, mousey if u r reading... have a nice trip and dun forget to get me a souvinier :p

To be or not to be... taken from McBeth

Well to be or not to be indeed... i got an email from him today asking me to help check some minor yet quite important stuff and after i downloaded it i start to wonder, should i even be helping him??? I mean by helping means i've forgive him for his mishap and by not helping him i'm putting out another candle... dilemma, dilemma, dilemma... wat should i do indeed.... sigh~~

1 side of my is saying "

"To hell wif him... if he had put in the effort from day 1, all would have been finish and we'll be celebrating but now... all u see is a pile of unfinished business"

then another side of me is saying

"time is running short and judging from his capabilities he'll drown long b4 the waves come"

Who should i listen to?? Wat should i do?? Its that 2nd voice that got me in this mess in the 1st place so should i still listen to it??? Or should i be stern n let him learn the lesson the hard way?? I've been thru the hard times so i know how tough it could get and its because i know is hard that's y i wan him to learn coz out there.. any mistake could be your last... y can't he understand that??? Why~~??

I'm really sick n tired of being the good guy, always conforming to others 'just because'. i wanna be the sadistic monster i once was and be more selfish so i can have something for myself, is that so bad?? is that so much to ask for?? sigh...

My personality ???

I guess i got bored again... sigh. There aren't much ppl i could talk to lately, i mean online and even if there is... i dunno wat to talk about and there haven't been much tat i can do besides work, i nid to revise on my programming but i'm kinda lazy to do work after working hrs... I was wondering has work really brought me further away from my frens?? Have we drifted so far apart that its hard to find a common ground to talk about? I could oni wonder... Anyway, i did this test again and guess wat i got... hahaha high in social hehehe... i guess there r things bout me that won't change after all hehe

Social

You scored 9 on the Social scale. This scale measures the extent to which like relating to the external world around you. 70% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Expressive

You scored 7 on the Expressive scale. This scale measures the extent to which you value spontaneity and an open-structured existence. 50% of the general population get high scores on this scale.

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Fair

You scored 6 on the Fair scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to base your judgments on objective fact. 60% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Intuitive

You scored 6 on the Intuitive scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to process information through abstract thought. 30% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Logical

You scored 6 on the Logical scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to process information through your five senses. 70% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Organized

You scored 6 on the Organized scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like your life to be organized and planned in advance. 50% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Compassionate

You scored 5 on the Compassionate scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to base judgments on what you, subjectively, believe to be right. 40% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Reflective

You scored 3 on the Reflective scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to relate to the internal world within you. 30% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

Bday celeb part 2

Well i've taken my sweet time to cool down and hopefully i'm cool enuf to continue tis hapi moment. Anyway back to the story... ... ...

Being the doggie for the bday girl hehehe :»Þ or am i a squrrel???

The session went on without the presence of another member, SC. She was still MIA and we started to get worried. I called her up and she say she could manage but later she called back saying that she's totally lost and she went to another Jusco instead... we were getting worried. Later Liz got another call from her then Liz asked whether could i drive her out to get her, i mean of course i can, the celebration wouldn't be complete without everyone right. So we went out and to guide her here. Liz give an excuse that she nid to go out to buy something and i was like ermm =_=" ?? While waiting for SC, we started talking. She asked me about my work and i begin bragging about the stuff that happened (i really nid to find another place to put my frustration sigh...) When SC arrive we went back. Once got back SC was singing her heart out coz she's been anticipating to sing but she was late.

Oh yea... its party time ~~

Later it was the cake session... the cake was brought in and we begin singing the bday song to HC. After the singing is over, and the cake was "officiated" i asked the bday girl to give a speech. It was a vry hapi moment for her as tis is the 1st time that all 6 of her sisterhood is here and she is vry touched with their presence there. Not to mention me i was there too hehehe... I've always been considered a fren to them and tis was the 1st time i celebrated her bday wif her.

Hapi Bday girl~~ Hope u enjoyed ur bday

Later, HC asked all of us the say something back to her and Camy manage to push to ball to me, asking me to go 1st and i was dumbed awhile... i mean i din actually had anything plan so it took me awhile b4 i started talking. As usual i spoke from the heart, thanking them for inviting me, i mean tis is the 1st time that i was actually invited to their bdays, 1st being Camy's bday and now HC's. To me it felt like i'm finally accepted as a fren instead of the acquaintance. It felt damn good.

Surf's up... oops i mean foot's up hahaa

Well i betta do some explaintions here.. to me there has always been a few levels in frenships having "Acquaintance" being the lowest level ... ... er.. i think i betta continue tis elsewhere some other time.. i dun wanna drift away from my main topic again hehhe...

Anyway the speech thingy went on one by one and it went more n more emo wif each person. Maybe i'm too slow or may be i'm just too stone (hearted i mean) or may be i'm just not close enuf to them to feel "it" coz even though i know wat they r trying to express to HC and to each other but to me... ... its just .. ... erm.. well i can't think of a word ... i'm just unable to related, that's all. Later everyone had a group hug and that really melted me away. That was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen n felt, it was really an honest time to express their love n care for each other. To the "ladies" who might be reading this, thx for showing me this, its not something that i can feel easily. We might not be vry close but all of u r my most prized frens. And after 2 more songs i have to take leave... i nid to get to KL Sentral to pick up bro... so wif that it ended a magical moment to me...

The moment, the time i spend wif them that night... magical. Will sure remember tis for a long long time. Thx everything.
True meaning of frenship... Doing the simpliest things together and to enjoy every second of it.