Convo....

Was at Wisma MCA on sunday evening to attend my "ben dan" sis convo... got there at around 4pm oni to know that they've not come out yet. So there i was waiting for her... waited n waited n waited... until 5pm. Wow, that's tiring. Saw Micheal so went to have a chat wif him, its good to know that there is still someone who remembers me. I'm sterting to think that i've been long n forgotten again.

While taking (or should i say helping to take) photo with that Chien, suddenly i felt so sad again. The last convo that i was suppose to attend, i wasnt there.... seeing my friends going up the stage taking their scrolls but not me... the feeling grew even stronger as it approach down the name list.. that was a sad case for me... I held back some tears, i held back some dream, I held back my sadness. This time, althought its not as sad as it was last time but i couldnt help but to think... .... "Hey i'm suppose to be wearing that Barney gown too" but i'm not. I couldn't..... again... My course hasn't yet been accrediated by the EAC so the uni can't arrange a convo for us. So wat's with me and convos?? When will it be my turn to go up that stage to recieve that piece of paper that i've worked so hard for?? When???? WHEN?????!!!!!!!

To add to my sadness... it was a convocation with studens from all 4 faculties, i saw those from mine but i din see anyone that i know. NOBODY... this brought me to think, all my years in uni as an organizer, as a leader, as an individual is nothing at this point in my life. I've become nothing but a memory from the deep beyond. The forgotten past. People, and the so-called-frens i made in uni is nothing here. The once and i should highlight ONCE bigshot of the faculty is nothing but a nobody here. A pathetic ending in another chapter for a pathetic person.

To my frens who participate in the convocation, i congratulate u from the bottom of my heart. To those who din like me, well... .... ur time will come... ... ... eventually... ... ... i hope
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