The 5 6 level of frenship

Well to those who heard me say this before, initially i've only said there are 5 hierarchy level of friendship and they are ....

Aquitance

Normal friends

Good friends

Clost friends

Buddies / Brethen

But after some incident that happened for this past few months, i can't help but to add another level to this hierarchy...

Aquitance
Normal friends
Play mate

Good friends
Close friends
Buddies / Brethen

Please try not to think to the other side of the word, as i am being serious here.

So why do i add this level there? As i was saying, tis past few months i've been experiencing something that i've not had before. To those of u who were following my blog, u might have noticed that i mention "The Ladies" a lot as they are among my closest girl friends in uni BUT~~ although i've placed them as my closest frens yet i do not know them as well as i should which got me to think that are we as close of a fren as i think we are? The reason that got me thinking about this is that, after knowing them for about 3 years, this year (after i graduate) is the oni time that i got invited to their bday celebs and to met up wif them that is NOT within the campus and the thing that really triggered this was when they begin to ask me questions about themselves... i could answer at all coz i totally dunno wat to say.

Y do i say play mate? Whenever i sees them in uni, i would walk up to them, crack some jokes, maybe try to pull some stupid stunts and then i'm gone, gone wif the wind; so its kinda like those "Out if sight, out if mind" kinda thing, so my presence is just mearly... just for fun. Never once i sat down wif them to talk about stuff that frens talk about, may be a little but never a serious session, its like i've never spend time to actually get to know them as well as i should. So am i worthy enuf to call them as my good friends?? I mean as good friends, i guess it would be normal to know each other's hobbies or favourite food/drink or their favourite activities right? But i know nothing of such things of them, and i doubt that they know mine either and if i were to post a question of

"Name 5 facts about me"

I believe most likely the answer that i would get would include:

1. I'm Leech
2. Articulate
3. Active
4. Likes gaming
5. Helpful

I mean this are the kind of things that almost anyone who've met me could tell u but could u tell me more ?? I seriously doubt that they could in fact i think not many of my recently known frens could. So am i a good friend?? I doubt that about myself... sigh~

Anyway i couldn't believe how closed we've become after all of us has graduated from uni, we actually go out sometimes just to met up, which is something that has never and i do mean NEVER happened b4 in my uni days. Well i guess it's still ok for me to call them my closest friends in uni ... at least now, i do feel the "friendship" part in this friendship.

So the 1 million question now is, where do U think u are in MY hierarchical ladder?

P/S: If any of u ladies who are reading this... ... Please dun misunderstand me, i'm just saying this coz it's kinda odd for me to call u friends when i myself did not make any effort to further improve in our relationship, that's all... so please dun feel bad about this post.

Hamachi~~~ HooOOO~~

Did 2 things yesterday night that still got me tingling till now hehe...

First is that i've rejoin the world of online LAN gaming party that we use to do back in our uni days. Oh yea~~ My hamachi was down for sometime now (i wasn't able to connect) so yesterday i went to clear all its old files and reinstalled again and voilà i was in the game muahahaha i'm back to the world of DotA again.

The second thing is... ... well its kinda a bit sickening but its damn funny hahhaa... I went searching on youtube for this clip and it was so damn hillarious that i couldn't keep it in... damn that japanese is just too damn funny (not to mention sickining) all thanx to my david for introducing me to it hahaha... i dun wanna say out the key word coz i dun wanna contaminate the minds of my dear readers :p hehehe but if u're interested to find out i can PM it to u hehehe

Sinusitis

Sinus infection symptoms are caused by inflammation and blockage of the sinus cavities. Sinuses are hollow pockets of air located on either side of the nose, behind and in-between the eyes, and in the forehead. The sinuses produce mucus that cleans and moistens the membranes of the nose and throat. Each sinus has an opening into the nose that allows for free exchange of mucus and air. Sinus infection symptoms result when these openings get plugged. As mucus and pressure build in the sinuses, a perfect breading ground for bacterial growth is produced.

Sinus infection symptoms include:
- Headache
- Pain
- Upper jaw and tooth ache
- Tenderness around the nose, forehead and cheeks
- Swelling and pressure around the eyes
- Ear ache and infection
- Fever
- Weakness or fatigue
- A cough, runny nose or nasal congestion

Taken from http://www.xlear.com/articles/sinus-infection-symptoms.aspx

Informative enuf?? Sigh~~ My in-house doctor at work just diagnose me wif sinusitis or sinus infection... it was in sat after i took the medicine i got from the clinic that i start to feel a lil fever-ish and back then i was still out whole night wif HC and Liz, having dinner and visiting my poor fren YK.

Then on monday i start having a headache and i feel vry weak more to sleepy basically then i think i really nid to see the doc. To my disbelieve, there were a lot of ppl sick too that day hahaa... bad weather we r having here in KL. Then the doctor told me this... sinusitis. The best part was the fact that this is actually a life problem, it can't be cured it can only be prevented; double sigh. I think i might go and get a 2nd opinion coz i doubt anyone like to hear that they got a life problem.... Not long after that i took an MC and went home to rest. Tis is my 1st time getting and MC hahah.. feel kinda happy hahha.. else that 14days will be burned so y waste it =p

Anyway tis few days i was basically blowing my nose having tonnes of mucus and when i cough... my head felt like the head of a nail wif a hammer hitting on it... talk about hell. Anyway after a few days of medication and rest i think i'm feeling betta, but too bad is that my cough is still like a wild horse, totally out of control. I was at the point where i thought of buying my old inhaler to help to stop my coughing, i'm feeling a wheezing in between my coughs... To make matters worse, tis is suppose to be my holiday~~~!!!! Please i wanna enjoy my holiday~~~!!!!!

Sick + injured

Guess wat... i'm sick again~~~ wait a min... ... i dun think is suitable for me to use the word "again" i never recovered so how could i be sick again if i've never recovered in the 1st place ... ... ... anyway, i'm sick... had a cold and was sneezing my lungs out in the office, really feel bad, it's like i'm trying to make everyone in the office sick T_T. Well hopefully no1 is really sick else i'll be the one to be blamed.

At night, HC + Liz + CCL and i went out for dinner, since mum's not around so i nid to settle my own meal that night. We went to SS17 in PJ for some Itallian food again... well maybe it was because i was kinda sick and the seat wasn't actually that comfy so i din quite taste my food as i normally would but to make matter worse is that Liz actually felt bad for bringing me there coz she thought i hated it... erm... well maybe if the seat was a little more comfy then it might be betta but ytd... erm... anyway i was kinda disturb wif wat CCL said during our meal
"Regardless its tasty or not, i would still finish it."
Well i think its kinda bad for him to say this, i mean if u like it then say u like it, if u dun then say u dun... wat is that remark is suppose to mean? Regardless, Liz still tried to bring us to some place different, so try to appreciate it a little.... sigh~ that guy will nvr change...

During our meal we called YK up asking her to join us and wat we heard was kinda shocking. During her training she somehow fell and somehow er... twisted?? Well i'm not sure of the word here... but her arm wasn't in a vry good shape. So we went to pay her a visit. Y izzit that so many people are injured lately... last week it was SC who fell and injured her leg now YK?? These ladies are surely best of frens, even injury oso wanna have it together hehe =p

At her place we sat down and started chatting, and the best part was the fact YK's dad was there too. We chatted wif uncle and had quite a few good laufs. But the most memorable was the "Turtle" joke on Liz. I would plan to share it here but i afraid i might not live to blog another post if i did hehe... so i'll kept it to myself and have a giggle once awhile when i see Liz again hehee...

Got back home around 2 and after bathing i went to bed around 3 just to find that the night is just so bloody cold... i din turn on my fan and yet i was sleeping wif a blanket thightly over me.. brrr~~~ wat a nite...

Edited on 16-12-07 at 2311

z Z z Z z Z z

After 2 days of holiday... well its not a good day to work. I finally decided to concentrate on the DDR thingy that my boss ask me to do so i started studying it today. Its either i no longer have that hunger for knowledge or i've grown blunt or its due to the holidays, while i was reading that damn thing my head got heavier and heavier, and i swear if i was sitting on a scale, the scale would go would bonkers due to the weight of my weight-increasing-head :p

After i gone through about 70% oni i noticed the reason behind me not understanding those stuff~~ i was reading it under the assumption that it was a board level thingy but instead, it was actually a silicon thingy instead =_=" no wonder i'm unable to get the picture... i was looking at the wrong hall trying to appreciate the wrong thing hahaha... after i got the hang of it the things start to make sense and i think i'm making progress hehe (hopefully)

Anyway its been the 4th day that the weather is like this... raining .. sigh~~ kinda moody u know... been having a lot of things on my mind; work, my colleague, and now "that" if it weren't for the squeeking rascal and the Moo Moo things might be betta if not different.. maybe... well i've made a decision and by hook or by crook, i'll live up to my words. Stick and stones could break my bones but words can never hurt me. 50 - 50 ??? HAHAHAHA~~~

~~ Curve ~~

Ytd almost out of the blue i got sms from the mouse asking me, whether do i wanna join them for lunch... and i did. So today we went. I got to JJ jsut to know that there was a change of plan. Instead of going to Ampang we went to the Curve which was fine wif me coz i've nvr been there since its opening but the problem is that i nid to drive my bike all the way to the Mouse's house instead otherwise she'll have a hell of a time bringing me back. Its been awhile since i last drove my bike but to drive from A to B just to drive to C but going pass A again... ... =_="

Anyway we begin wif an Itallian lunch b4 heading to the Curve... the place looks vry nice, vry well decorated. The place look magnificant. We took some photos and among them i really like the 1 i took of the mouse wif the xmas trees as background. Just nice haha..

Oh we went to try out the donuts and to my suprise there was a vry long que and i was like wow.. is this donut really that nice?? There were about 20 odd staff inside helping to make the donut and a few more to help sell them... RM 9.50 for 6 but it costs RM 2 per donut a big difference if u ask me.. We went to have tea while devouring the donuts and the taste was really good... no wonder there was such a long que outside hahaa... but talking about the tea, the tea was really nice. I can't remember when was the last time i really had tea coz usually i would order coffee instead.. Too bad i dun remember the name of the shop we went into..

Anyway in the end, the biggest winner was the Mouse, she manage to squeeze 2 xmas presents from me and HC, and the biggest lozer?? Wuakakak.. yup, u've guessed it, ME~~ hehe.. well i din get anything for myself coz i can't seems to find anything to my liking. I'm really looking for one of those transparent thingy (hehe i chose not to tell it coz i dun wanna sound too desprate :p) but i can't seems to find it.. sigh~~ kinda frustrating sometimes. Well i guess that's part and parcel for being me, the eccentric fella hahahaa... well hopefully i'll be able to see it sometime in the future coz i've been looking for it for a few years now.

We later head on to Kepong for dinner coz we wanted to send HC to take the train home but hahaa.. when we got there.. .. there was 1 song that was playing in my head.. 25 minutes we were 7 minutes late for the last train hahahaa.. so instead i drove HC home but not without bringing them to have a wonderful KL night view near my hse and they loved it haha.. kinda proud that i stay here, i can enjoy the view anytime i wish :p

Hehe come to think of it, todays post dun seems to make sense hahaaha.. i mean the sentences dun seems to link with the next etc hahaah.. well maybe i'm tired hahahaa.. so gtg ~~

C~o~l~d~~ D~a~y~

~~~ It's been raining since u left me

Now i'm drowining, in the flood~~

You've always seen me as a fighter

But without you i give up~~

Taken from Always by BonJovi

Well all i wanted was basically the 1st line hehehe...

Brr ~~ today is not a good day for work, god damn it... it's bloody cold, most suited for nothing but a long, long time in bed... ... sleeping.. .... but sigh~~ Those days are far, far away now... sigh~~

Sometimes i can't help but to feel kinda stupid, well i have flexi-hours so i can actually spend more time in bed then oni go to work, but instead, i chose to wake up early, go to work early, and come home late... Wat am i?? Stupid?? Hahahaa... On this cold n beautiful day, i should hv just stayed in bed awhile longer n take full advantage of the weather to catch more Zs.

The whole day i'm in the office.. ... ... lazy, yup i'm lazy today. Dun quite feel like giving my 100% today. Things oni seems to pick up after lunch where i start to scramble my brain over that "thing" i'm workin on... ... The time just can't be matched~!!! ARRRRRR frustration clouds me in the office today hahaha... well nid to continue working on it tmr, nid to check the values again hahahaa... life sux :p

Bad streak

As if wat happen few days back is not enough... my SATA2 HDD just crashed (now i'm using my old rig) and all my photos is in there.... wanted to continue on my Penang trip but now totally lost the mood to write sigh~~~ and today my office PC give me the damn old problem again... can u believe it, AGAIN~~~!!! This is the 3rd time WTF~~~!!!

Why izzit that i'm the oni one in the dept that get this problem? The program keep on generating rubbish files for me... WHY~~~~!!!

But my day din go all that bad... at least i've bought that belated bday gift that i sort to get hehe... after work went to find Grn and wif her help we were able to get a belated present wuakaka.. its about 2 mths late haha.. maybe i'll we'll substitute it as a christmas present instead wuakakakaka.... see how it goes :p

Bad day

Today is not a good day for me... i can't believe how bad my luck was...

I begin my day with my tweezer making a long scartch on my left arm's triceps, although it din make but it did startled me coz the area around the cut seems to be reddish (in an abnormal way) since i've been using my tweezer for the rework recently i afraid it might be due to the solder lead so i quickly went to wash the wound...

Later in the evening while writing the software to the TV set, i accidently touched the LCD panel's balancer board causing an electric shock to myself. Lee who was standing besides me heard the electrical "buzz" i made and seems kinda worried. 1 kV of voltage folwoing into ur body, i'm damn lucky to be still able to sit here blogging about it hahaa. So to those who have an LCD TV at home... watever u do, dun touch the board on the sides of the panel, it's operating at 1kV AC and its vry deadly.

Surviving that ordeal i got myself in another mess later. While i was carrying the 46" set from my station to the table i accidently cut myself (again???), this time its my thumb... and i din noticed it until i saw blood coming from the wound. I think it must be the stress on the surface of my thumb and then my thumb was right there resting on the shart edge of the bracket so... ... i got cut.

This is the 1st time tat i ever got so many unpleasent stuff happening to me at work... was it something i did?? How come i'm so unlucky today??? WHY~~~~~ Anyway i'm glad the day is over... and look at the time, its time for bed again... .... sigh, i still nid to work on sat, damn... spoiled my weekend again... ... ...

Deepaveli Vacation Part2

Well as promised, i'm here to further elobrate on my lil' trip. Now, where were i... ... ... okie~~ this is about the hike to the Muka Head Lighthouse.

The walk uphill was tiring... according to HY n 018, my face look awful and to be honest i was but i was determined to make it to the top that i forcefully, using every ounce of my strength to make the climb. I forgot when was the last time i was so determined to actually do something. And at the end of the climb... its all this... just magnificant

The view from the Lighthouse

We rest on the base of the lighthouse trying our best to regain consciousness after the climb. Then we walk up to the lighthouse... the steps up were kinda narrow and its kinda creepy too but it was fun, i've never been up in a lighthouse b4 at least not that i can remember for the time being.

On the deck of the lighthouse we, had a small picnic session, some food some drinks all while overlooking the green, green forest and the deep blue sea accompanied with the cooling wind from the sea. The combination is just perfect after all those climbing. We stayed there for about half hour i think, coz i dun actually wear a watch now... took quite a number of photos too.

Later we started our journey down the tower to make our way back to the beach. BUT not without some additional shots hehehe

Not to mention some solos heheh :p

The weary and beaten leech...

Then the caretaker actually took us for a shor tour of the light house. From the caretaker i got the know that this lighthouse is actually built in 1883 (OMG~~ 100yrs older that me !!!) with the cost of 37k pound, hell that's expensive.

and i took the liberty to actually make a note of this .... its some sort of a brief journey in history. It has a old hand powered water pump too, like those we see in the movies especially those wild west movie. While having this tour we were told not to go near a certain flower pot coz there is a viper there and went i looked, hey there's really one..

After the tour we journey downhill for a boat ride back to the our car. We were too tired to actually journey back there again hehe... anyway wif that i think i'll end my post for today, i nid to wake up damn early tmr coz i'm going to work on the morning shift which starts at 0615 but b4 i go... here's a wrap up photo

Deepavali Vacation: Penang

Since i din show up in penang last Raya holi, i was some sort compulsary to make it tis Deepavali holi. So on the 7th at around 5pm i was in Masjid Jamek waiting for HY to make my way to penang.

The bus got delayed and we arrive at penang island at around 1145pm and our ETA was suppose to be around 10pm... sigh... So we went for mamak b4 retiring for the night... but not without making some noise. Pillows were flying around in Fatt's room as we fool around wif HY haha... this is the gang i know hahaha. BUT soon we did sleep coz the next day we are going for a hard walk.

We met CK and his frens for breakfast somewhere in town... we had dim sum there, too bad i can't recall the location. The food is not vry expensive so it was kinda worth it. After breakfast we went to Batu Fringgi, to the Penang National Park;

and so the journey begins~~~
it started off easy wif some paved road and some steps later it was the greens

and here's the map...

or sort of a map :p

After the greens it was the beach... haha it was kinda fun, its been awhile since i last been to the beach. If i remember correctly, my last trip to the beach was wif Soo, 2 yrs back when i was still in penang for my internship... how time flies...




well the jungle tracking was kinda fun... its kinda nostalgic for me coz the last time i did tis i was i diploma haha... 5 yrs ago i think hahaha

and at the beach... ... ... there were some fighthing...

all that coz of a bottle of Excel?? hahaha

some flying...

and to those who can't fly..


we cross, the stream might look small but its damn deep... the water was up to my knee.


Did i mention this beach is actually called the Monkey beach... and just in case u are wondering why... ....

hehe ...

This is why :p

Later we basically continued down the beach till its time for the 3rd n final league... the climb to the lighthouse. The climb was intense... after the 1st part i was begining to feel weary.... the track was slippery and steep so the journey is not that easy. Later to make matters worse it, there weren't any more steps, it was off road and the journey took to another level. The climb went from bad to worse, requiring me to summon all my strength and my focus to keep me moving and in the end... i reached the top ... but not without the sacrifices... no photos during the climb coz i dun wanna lose my momentum...

God.. look at the time.. i'll share the lighthouse photos the next time... right now its time for me to catch some Zs haha... nite~~

The missing Leech

Yup.. i've been missing from blospot for some time now... approx. 2 weeks i think... the reason??? A few....

1. I was not in KL (during the festive holiday)
2. After holi was damn damn damn bz in office... (actually work ave of 15 hrs daily for 6 days)
3. My phone line got problem... my hse phone went dead and my modem got fried... i think its the lightning again... sigh~~~~

Well i'll try to update my blogie soon... for now.. i nid some rest... still not yet recover from my work ordeal

Tired tired week

Well i've been working for 6 weeks last week, and it almost went to 7 days but luckily it got canceled else i'll be working thru the weekend... But 1 damn funny thing happen at work last sat.. but b4 i start, how many of u out there believe in feng shui?? To some its superstitious and to some its something vry real. Undoubting there r many different comments on this but as far as i know, feng shui is not as superstitious as u think it is, its actually science. Allow me to illustrate .... wait a minute... i can't... hahahaha but believe me, there is some science behind tis feng shui thingy.. anyway back to my story...

While we were doing our inspection of the sets (its a part of our trail prototyping process, where we check for basic functionality) we notice that the TV din response to the remote control... we checked the sensor board, we checked the wiring and we check the remote....nothing.. all of them are functioning just nice. Then HW went to do some experiment, we found that the sensor board is not functioning at when placed in certain position and we begin to think... "Weird... this couldn't be.." we try n shift and then we come to a conclusion...

Bad Feng Shui

WUAKAKAKAAKAA.... well not actually fengshui but it is due to the position of the sensor board. We found that there are some interference coming from the panel that seems to distrub the remote control signal which cause it to stop functioning. We went to demo this to one of the designer and he was too amaze not to mention amused hahaha by our discovery :p and now we r still waiting form feedback from our fellow japanese members.. Guess what.. tat actually become the biggest laugh i had the whole week hahahaa...

But rest assured that we will solve this problem so that it will not appear in our next line up hahaha.. and dun start pointing fingers saying its a no good product, like i say, its still in prototyping stage so there r bound to be problems, that's wat being in R&D is all about hahahaah :p

Then the next day ... ... ... i guess i leave this story till next time, i'm actually vry tired... i din get a good sleep ytd woke up around 3+ and had difficulties falling asleep again so i'm really beat... so till next time.. ciao~~

Love

Its another round of random thoughts from the Leech again... today's trigger... the radio.

While i was driving, on my way home, i was listening to the radio and today its talking about some psychological stuff. But wat that strike me to most is the guy who send sms to the host saying that he has admire a girl for 3 years now, although it doesn't make their encounter awkward but it is kinda tiring (i can imagine why). The guy was asking wat should he do.

Well initially i would expect the guest to say something like "Think is she the one and if she is, go tell her" etc... but instead, she begin by saying that while admiring someone, "it is the best time of your life" and i was like o_O" ... well allow me to elobrate... According the the guess, it is the time where "u'll be living in ur own world thinking and imagining how beautiful it is if u were together" and also its when ur "creativity is at its peak, u'll be able to do some marvelous artwork or handicraft, u'll be able to say the most romantic if not sweetest things".

At this point i was kinda convience coz it makes sense. Anyway besides wat she said about tis, it does makes me wonder... should i call the guy stupid or should i call the guy loyal; i mean he's been admiring the girl for 3 years now, 3 long years it takes a lot of determination to actually keep this admiration alive and to go on for so long, its even more marvelous. The point where i wanna call him stupid is, y din he make any move after all this time? Or has he made his move but was rejected and if it was, wat should i call him then?? Idiot?? Y do u still wanna keep this feeling going on even after she said "No" are u aiming for another big NO slamming at ur face again?? U might think she's ur cup of tea; ur angel; but to her u might not even qualify to hold a candle to her. Or maybe, to her u r just a fren, u may be a good good fren but u r still just a fren.

As for the girl... is she dumb or is she cruel?? How could u not notice a guy that has been admiring u for all this time? Is he such a nobody that u hardly notice him? Or did u know about this but u are hoping that he'll forget u and move on if u keep ignoring him? Is he so bad that u can't consider him to be someone else other than a fren to u?

As usual, there are no rights nor wrongs in relationship especially when it comes to admiration. If s/he has no feelings for u, then no matter how long u longed and wait, it just wouldn't happen. U can't blame those people around s/he coz the decision still lie in s/he hands. The oni thing u can say is, "Why am i so stupid to keep admiring s/he even when i know nothing's gonna happen?"

As blind as love could be, its those who fail to see the signal that causes regrets. To the guy.. u might wanna try to tell her ur deepest feelings for her and hope for best coz this is definately not the way.

Update time~~

Just remembered that i've not updated my blog for a few days... i wonder what happen.. ohh~~~ i remembered... i was out everynight tis past few days. Not having enuf sleep too... *yawn*

On my last post i was saying something about CK in KL.. so on fri we went out again, this time there is another member, Veron... WY manage to get her out so we went for a drink and chatted for some time. Well for excatly some time but for a long time. We oni left the place around 1+ then i got back to CK's hse (coz my car was there) then when i got home + bath + etc.. i slept around 2+ and the night b4 that i slept around 1+ hahaha... 2 nights i oni slept about 7hrs and work 10hrs for both of that day.... oh did i mention that i nid to go to work the next day too. But since its CK so wat to do... not enuf sleep oso nid to go de... brather ma~

Then it was ytd ... ... it was Ben's last day, he resign to go back to hometown coz someone need to be there to attend to his parents. Tough choice, work : family. Wat will u chose? If i were him, i would have done the same... nothing more important than family. Anway we went to have dinenr wif him as a farewell to him. The funny thing is that oni the new members were there. Lee, HY, SM, Wong, MY, Ben and I.

It was a pitty that Ben was goin, he is a nice guy, he had a "wonderful" talking talent like mine too hahaha.. if he continued we would have been vry good frens hahaha and maybe i can clear my name for having the most wicked / deadly mouth in DTS hahaha... The thing i really regret is that i din bring my camera together, else at least we would hav taken a photo together.

To Ben (well i dun think he'll be reading this but wat the heck), have a wonderful future. It wasn't long but its been nice to have know u...

The sound of silence... ...

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yup that is wat i feel like each time i login my blog today its nothing but "... ... ..." wat does it mean, it means that its dead. I thought by adding a chatter box i might have more interaction wif my visiting frens but i guess i was wrong... well nvm... i'm used to it

Remember when i say when i dun have appointment i have none and when i do it come in waves? Well i had another such experience again today. Ytd SM ask me whether we wanna go for dinner tonite coz she got a 10% coupon to eat somewhere and i say sure... y not. Then later today i got a msg from the egg asking me to go dinner... then later i got another phone call from CK asking me to go out tonite... hahaah 3 invitations and the best part is, its all happening tonite.

BUT to my advantage... SM forgot the bring the coupon, the egg canceled last min coz she got additional assignment at work and LUCKILY, CK is still coming to find me hahaha... at least i got 1 appointment that i can keep wuakakak.. so wif that i shall end here coz he should be arriving anytime now.

How much do u know me??

Saw this from a fren's frenster and it seem fun so to those who think they know me or u think u know me.. please take some time off and do this test wilya?? I just wanan know..
Create your own Friend Test here

Confirmed?? ... ... .. or not... sigh~~

I got my so called confirmation letter (or should i say notice) today from my boss and i was kidna eager to actually open it. Usually i would save it till i go home but this time is kinda different... as soon as my boss turn his back i was already busy opening the envelop and when i open the damn thing... .... ... my confirmation date is actually next month and i was like...

WTF???!!!
@_@

Its next month and u r giving it to me today?? U are about 30days too early i think... but anyway i guess its ok... at least i know i'm going to be confirmed hahaha... but that means i kenot find other jobs now ... wuakakaka.. jz kidding ... still kinda hapi there and i've just promise myself to step up and finish that damn program b4 moving on...

Keep it up leech...

A geeky dog hahahaa

This is a short test i took after reading it from my cuz .. and guess wat.. i'm geekier that i thought hahaha...

Your Geek Profile:

Fashion Geekiness: Moderate Academic Geekiness: Low Gamer Geekiness: Low Geekiness in Love: Low General Geekiness: Low Internet Geekiness: Low Movie Geekiness: None Music Geekiness: None SciFi Geekiness: None

How Geeky Are You?

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest.However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are!Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk.You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood! You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.

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Turning over a new leaf

Today i decided to do something, something for myself in this organization... i'm gonna put all my effort in finishing this program then i'm gonna move on... my boss just give me another assignment which i feel could be a big challange to me so i decided to postpone my proporsal to change dept, instead i'm gonna spend more time on my initial assignment to finish this adjustment programme that i'm suppose to do and at the same time study those design spec. I wanna make full use of my time here in DTS. I'm gonna channel all my time, energy and concentration on this few task so that i won't have time to think of something else, and to take my mind off something.

A mind is a terrible thing to waste

That is something i remember from a movie and recently i've been using my brain for almost the wrong reason... its time to bring myself back together again ... do something i'm good at so i won't waste my time anymore... its time to turn over a new leaf... step back, see and then move forward... dun always stay in one spot... it dun get u anywhere...

A quickie~~

YES~~~ i got a chatter box on my blog.. finally....
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No, that dun come from me... i finally went ahead wif a chatterbox coz my cuz is pestering me about it waukakakaa... YES~~~!! i decided to promote ur "good" deed to the whole world :p and to show that i'm a caring cuz coz i listen to u wuakakakakakaa.... oops... i guess i've blown my cover haha... anyway to those who feel lazy to leave a comment, u can now choose to leave a msg on my chatter box instead now.. so no more excuses for not leaving a comment/msg after visiting my bloggie ^o^

Stupid stupid PC

Guess wat... i've told my seniors ytd that i wish to change department coz it was getting kinda boring here in DTS, i actually feel humiliated when i told Dr Lo that i am a designer but i dun do any EE related design work. I can't just sit around waiting till the end of the month to take my salary.. no i kenot do that, i can't forgive myself. I wish to do something, something that have some level of importance to the organization i work in, something related to wat i've slave away my life studying... Big dream?? no, just pratical... i wan to be a designer that do design not someone who is called a designer but ... ... well u get the idea, its not that my department dun do design, but its not EE related design work... and i can't help but to feel ... odd...

Anyway enuf complaining... today, Gan ask me to study some design stuff asking me try to digest the whole thing and link it to our actual design... its like wat i did previously wif the LVDS just that this time its another different interface. I think i'll make this my goal... study this bloody thingy till i can design, predict and debug it. I wanna be an expert on this... i WAN~~~ although this is not actually design but i at least i can understand the backgroud work to the design... then, may be i'm able to do the design myself next time.

Funny... i just told my seniors about my little intention ytd and today this... o_O
i smell a rat...

well i guess nothing is a secret in the office... wan it to be a secret??? Keep it to yourself :p

Oh not forgetting something vry shitty happen today... my bloody PC fail on me today... i was saving my PowerPoint file when all the sudden, the pc just fail... the screen change to some fuzzy looking thing and the keyboard stop functioning. I tried to restart my pc but nothing happened... it give me a "blue screen" and that's it... NOTHING... oni BLUE SCREEN~~~~~ the members from ESS came to help but still nothing... later i manage to get my pc to work again but to my amaziment... it manage to show me some sign of life for about 5 mins b4 dying on me again... i suspect its either the HDD or the MoBo is gone... damn damn damn... how am i suppose to work tmr??? WTF~~~~~!!!!

HELP~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!

1st day @ work

No i din change job but it is my 1st day at work after a long holiday, 6 days to be exact. I've been on holi mood so long that i've begin to get numb... The day at to office went kinda slow coz almost everyone is still in holi mood and the roads is even worse. It took me about half hr to get to office instead of my usual 50 mins... a reduction in 20mins

But we still work... even got some good laughs today when Wong from ED2 came n humor us wif his "Shit" jokes and the best was he ask me this...

well this is wat happen. He came to us asking is to change the heat sink on the board, we ended up asking him to find us a screw drive coz our Person in charge of keeping the screw driver is still on holiday. so b4 he left to get us the screw driver... .... ...

W: How do u call a screwdriver in malay??
L: Pemutar skrew
W: Oh...
(bout 10sec later... ... ...)
W: Then how do u call it in english??
SM & L: o_O".... Screwdriver lo #laughing our socks off#

I can't believe that guy actually asked us that... SM and i was laughing so hard that Lee thinks that we have lost our marbles. I mean everyone is still in holi mode that not everyone is as sharp as we use to b4 the holidays hahaha... i think tmr Wong will regain his sanity hahaha...

Funny, dunny day indeed hahaha :)

Lost

I guess i've gotten a bit moody again after this few days of holiday.
Feeling kinda lost whenever i think about my work;
Feeling kinda being used when i think of WY;
Feel kinda left out and unwanted when i think how "far" i am from my frens even though sometime distance is not the case.
Feel kinda stupid when i know i'm still hoping for something that ain't happening no matter how much i wan it
I just feel ... ... stupid ermm... useless

I guess this is why i dun like long holidays... i begin to think too much about nothing, i dun like having too much time in hand coz i'll begin to think about things about myself: who i am, who i've become, what i've achieved, what i've done, what i've missed and what i've let go... the list goes on and on and on. This kinda reminds me of my previous post Me, Myself and my Blog

Sometimes i feel like the only place i can go to is my own blog, coz in it i'm in my own world... i can just express all i wish to express even though wat i'm expressing is just plain rubbish... i sometimes think...
... will there be a day where i would call a friend asking him/her to come out coz i nid a company and that i'm too sad/down to comfort myself like always?
... ... Will there be a friend willing to that for me as i would for them?
... ... ... What would be the 1st thing that will come across their mind if they were to hear those words coming from my mouth?
... ... ... ...What will be their expression?

You know... i'm not always Mr Tough, there are times where i wish i'm nothing but a worm and i can hide and i can have someone that could come n comfort and nurse me back to health but i know that is a luxury i can't afford to have or should i say i will not allow myself to have. Sigh~~~ i guess i'm too harsh on myself... like the song in my blog, (i'm quoting a verse from it)

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

I really like this song because when u follow the lyrics properly u'll feel that, its not easy being u sometimes... and u'll feel that its better being the guy next to u... the song expresses that... its just not easy to be me...

Hv i finish expressing myself?? erm... well... i dunno... have i?? Haha, i'm asking question that oni i know how to answer, i guess that is just who i am: The Enigma Scale. The variable in a world of constants, the ambiguity admist of crystal clear facts... The unknown, the unheard and the unseen... i am the Leech

Boiling hot~~~

Oh yea... ... he's the king of kool... he can sleep through a airstrike bombardment, he can just sit there in a pressure cooker and not break a sweat... he's none other than the one and oni DTWY

He's suppose to submit the draft today but it's yet to be finished last night. I got his "tut meng chui wan" call last night and i was thinking to my self "Should i even pick up this phone call?" i really took my own sweet time to consider whether should i answer that phone call or not, knowing that if i answer it then there is no return... i nid to go into the abyss but in the end i still pick up that phone. i have a soft heart... too soft... sigh~~~

Went to help him do some minor thesis editing at 9++ till 4++ am i was totally spent since i din get much rest the night before (or any nights b4 that hahhaa) so at abuot 430 i was down for the count, waking up to chek on him once awhile to make sure he's not dead yet.

Got to uni and it was hard work all the way... we were working like mad in the lab but then then when Dr. N say postpone to fri the pace slowed down. and about lunch time i went to a complete stop... i can hardly think wat's wrong wif his circuit, i dunno where to begin troubleshooting not to mention i was kinda 'high'. This continue till about 2+ after he finish his thesis and we went for breakfast... but as usual we ended up talking and talking and talking till about 4++ then oni i can eat... damn damn damn....

WY u really 'dam tim yau chin jing' i respect u... BIG time... but plz dun find me next time of u got another this big bomb, i too old for this :S

Its another Bday haha

12/10 n 13/10 is the bday of two of my good friends too bad is one of them is in Pg so i'm unable to do much celebration but at least i'm able to celebrate wif another hehee. So on 13th i was celebrating the bday of yet another of my uni lady friends bday...

tis time is Green's bday and she choose to celeb it in Times Square coz she wanted to enjoy herself in the theme park but till the end, we din went in at all. Instead we spend our time in the arcades and bowling.

We had our... erm.. i think it was tea coz it was about 330 when i finally got to Times Square, the funny thing is that i din know the roads has changed. While I was driving, i kept looking around coz i dun remember those roads being one way... damn its been too long since i made a trip to Bkt Bintang area.

In Kenny Roger's we were served by a young lad *errk...i can't believe i'm using the word young here!!!* he was kinda new there, he's oni been working ther for 6 days... anyway the reason he was so interesting is because he was kinda nervous, while we were ordering he wasn't able to keep up wif us. We nid to repeat our orders one by one slowly and the ladies was laughing at him (in a good manner) coz it was funny but their laughing might have got him more n more nervous anyway i din wanna fool around so instead of telling verbally, i just pointed at what i wan and let it be over with.

While eating, flo warned me that SY like to pinch people and its really painful so if i were to offend any of them i might get myself in trouble but the oni problem is... ... she's still too new as in she just know me so she dun dare to do anything to me hahah with i use it to my advantage :p being the notty fool i am, i move my face closer to her asking me to pinch me, i even showed her where hehehe, as i felt her getting tempted i quickly move away hahahahaa... i'm evil MAUHAHAHAAA... well hopefully she dun get the idea too quickly else i'll be in deep, DEEP poo-poo

After our meal we went to the arcades. Basically it was all Grn n HC at the games... i was too locked on to the simulator machine. The damn game is like wat we read in the Yugioh comic where the players place their cards on the machine and the computer will simulate the card and the battle... i was totally mesmerized, too hooked to go anywhere else. Damn.. tis is wat i call the power of technology. Uber kool man... totally owned me. Neway back to the ladies... they we into the games themselves too. I manage to take some snap shots of them hopefully they won't kill me for this haha

There they are hoggin up the machine :Þ

After the arcades we went to IMAX hoping to catch a good movie but there aren't any interesting one so instead we detour to the bowling alley. This is my 1st bowling session since my diploma during my days in SOTSWC where we went to Genting after we were elected as the exco for SWC and that was about 4-5 years ago... i was kinda nervous coz i afraid i might make a fool of myself but instead they told me they are all noobs too which made me really relax hahhaa.. N00b vs n00b haha no worries there :p and guess what... ... ... i turn out the be the champion hahahaa... i manage to break my own records too hahaha.. i manage to hit 100pins (111 actually :p) of all my sessions i've oni manage to hit 6x at most but today, after 5 years i manage to hit 100 hahaaha.. damn it felt good haha.. The ball felt right and my hands seems to be listening, all (well most of them) my throws was straights unlike my previous throws where the ball drifts away from my throw direction.

Here we are at the bowling alley in Times Square... SY lost a turn after taking tis photo... haha time expired i guess :p

After bowling, we went to BB Plaza hoping to be able to ride that motion master thingy but we din know the way, so Flo's bro, Benjamin, came to our rescue... he showed us the way to the ride but when we got there it was closed... it was afterall 820 haha. I din think they look alike or anything like that but at 1st glance, u'll know Flo and Ben are related... funny how family could be hahaa.. Anyway since Green is leavong soon (she was going for round3) so we say our goodbyes. Flo and SY went wif Ben and HC, Green and i went back to times square, our car is parked there. There we had dinner and we were on our way. Too bad we din take any group photo though... anyway its not imporant, wat is important is all recorded in my mind and some in my blog :p

6+ hrs of bday celeb... not too bad i think, i wonder how would it be like during my bday hahaha ... but its kinda too far away to think about that... :p

Wait and wait and wait....

Since last month i've done a lot of waiting, i mean for people. There was the wait for HC's bday coz they are attending a training course, then it was chain waiting session during our so-called-farewel for the mouse, then waiting for VT for our dinner and ytd.. i waitied for HY....

The course thingy i can forgive since they are coming from PJ and i'm working in office so i can still cheat some OT hours :p then the chain waiting session... ... ... that's a ball. I arrived at HC's place as promised and i still nid to wait an additional 6-10 mins later we head on to Sc's place for anothe round of waiting, this time about 40mins luckily i got some1 to keep me company else i would have died of boredom later when we got to the mouse's hse there was another 10 mins wait... OMG, i've spend an hr of my time waiting for these ladies =_="

The next wait was from VT... how could a guy spend more than 15 mins in the parking area?? Thong, SM, the Wong(s) and i was waiting for VT n HY to come out of the parking and we waitied for 15 mins...

My final waiting session came from my dear HY.... again i've waited for half hour and tis time i dun have someone to sit next me to pass time. Sigh~~ luckily i was bz arranging for Noraizah's Raya thingy... this time i hope i'm able to get more of the 5S3 guys to pay Noraizah a visit. Its been kinda boring just having me n soo visiting her each year.

Ohh.. b4 i forget, there is a place in PJ SS2 behind Public bank. Its a place to eat, the food was really good, althought its kinda pricy but the food portion and the taste really worth the money. Not the mention it has a fancy layout. Once u r seated u've almost have complete privacy coz the seating area is blocked from plain view so u can enjoy ur meal and urself in private. Sorry coz i dun remember the name but i guess u won't miss it when u are there :p

Love Test???

I can't belive i actually went thru and finish that test, may be a part of me really wanna know hahah.. sometimes i just dunno wat i'm thinking about ahhaah... Anyway i went on doing this love test from tickle *duh...* and guess wat.. i find wat they say kinda true...

My love personality is Essential Companion . When i first read it i was like o_O" coz i was a bit confuse by what that term actually mean but after reading it... well its kinda true... according to them, an essential companion is ... ... (i'll do some cut n paste, coz i lazy to type)

If someone is looking for a genuine, down-to-earth partner who knows how to treat others with kindness, they'd best look in your direction. As an essential companion, you're one who not only respects and values the people in your life, but who makes your relationships a top priority. However, you're usually not the type to try to impress others with fancy romantic gestures.
Nor are you a person who is apt to spend time worrying about your appearance in a superficial manner. If that special someone is willing to take you as you are, you will happily do the same for them. However if they're not, you'll probably keep on walking.

You're probably interested in finding a partner who will be equally committed to things like quality time and genuine communication. That way, the two of you can focus on one another without all the bells and whistles that some people consider an essential part of a good relationship. When you find an individual who feels the way you do about these things, the relationship you create will be a truly special one.

Well i can say that all tis i agree haha, i mean i've always accepted people around me for who they are regardless of their background coz i i believe that everyone is unique and u r who u are. And i truely hope i can find someone who is willing to accept me for who i am too. Like i always tell my frens, i'm not smart, nor handsome, nor rich, nor athletic... (sigh~~ saying this all over again does have an impact on my ego hahaha) i'm just a leech... a walking bag of flesh who just know how to work, work and work with limited emotions, intelligence and soul; not forgetting like to suck ppl's blood for pleasure :[

Just to end this bloggie wif a twist... ... when oh when will i find my true love in this cruel, cruel world... oh~~~ when... ...

ciaoz~ :p

Short but fun dinner

Yesterday, over our 3pm break, out of the blue, VT suddenly ask everyone to go for dinner today. I agreed without much thought coz i truely wanna spend more time wif my colleagues ... but the others... well the others seems a bit awkward since it din actually sounded like an invitation.

So today everyone was still in doubt thinking whether wat VT said was true and when its time to go, Hong said no and he left... later Lee too went home but it was beacause he wasn't feeling very well not to mention it was raining cats and dogs out there. Even i wanan go home to sleep hehee..

Ohh today our new member, ManYee join us too for dinner together wif Wong, well basically both of them are Wong so we called the new guy ManYee instead. It was cool... I think he got to experience the DTS members first hand our madness and haha should i say... 'vulgerness' :p well we weren't vulgar just we used a lot of different jargons in our routine converastion that could make others @_@ .

Sorry if u r anticipating photos coz i din take any :p Hey its just a casual dinner, if photos were included i would be called crazy by them, "Small things like tis oso nid take camera meh~~!" Neway, althought its just a normal casual dinner but it was nice, we had some good laughs after a hard day's at work.

Photo repeats??

Been looking at my frenster photos and noticed that quite a number of my recent photos are of the same group of people although for different reasons but its still with the same group of people. Happening or lonely??? Always with the same group of people, well i dun mean that i dun like their company, in fact i really enjoy my time wif them but it seems to me that i really dun have much frens anymore... the last photo i actually took wif team pilot was bout 5mths back in Ayer Panas jz b4 each other was on their way home to their hometown. Sometimes can't help it but to miss those fukers... they might not be the best buds in the world but they r the gang i've spend most of my time wif in uni and dip. I was suppose to go to pg to find them tis Raya but it seems like i'm unable to arrange for a appropriate time to met them. So i plan to go on Deepavali and tis time i hope nothing happen coz if ffk again i'm as good as dead hahahaa... :p

Counting down my days to deepavali hahaha and raya its not even here yet wuakakakaka~~~

To remember or to forget, which is easier?

Wat do u guys think... which is easier? To remember or to forget? A funny question wouldn't u think? Have u ever been in situations where ppl ask u something and u would go, "Ah... Sorry, I forgot." or in situations where u remember something unpleasent bout a particular person and wat s/he did to u back in ur 2nday dayz. BUT... ... dun worry, that is not wat i meant. Usually u'll forget something that u should have remembered and u'll remember something u wanna forget.

So the question is.. which is easier?? To remember something nice that u wanna playback in ur mind forever; or to forget something that u din even wanna know ever existed. As for me... I can hardly remember how to perform a simple integration operation even thought it was a core activity in by skool days and yet i can't forget something i've told myself over n over again to forget. I can learn to "forget" how to feel and yet once i "remembered" it again, i'm unable to "forget" it again.. I've forgotten how to "forget" how to feel.. i'm unable to supress that feeling and that thought even thought i've told myself to do so. Haha.. anyway that's just an example dun take dat too seriously but its kinda nice to have that skill again, coz there r just times where u just dun wan ur emotions to cloud ur judgement. I just to be able to make stern judgement w/o being effected by my emotions but now, its getting harder by the day .. sigh~~

Anyone of u have an idea on how to forget things that u wanna forget and remember those things that u wanna remember?? Any 'tested n proven' methods?? Care to share :p ...

I wanna forget.... i wanna forget ... I WANNA FORGET~~~~ but i can't... hahah :p

edited on 25/9/07 at 1243

Have a safe trip~~ Squeek

Have u ever wonder how fast time flies?? Its already been 3 yrs since i got to know the ladies and today, the mouse just went on her Euro trip. I'll try not to be old but.. almost everyone i know in uni is leaving uni and soon... soon the uni is just a memory. There is no more senior-junior relationship among them and may be in a not too far future, those who were once my juniors will be my possible employer, haha.. relly, who knows...

made plans to met wif the mouse b4 she leave for her trip, i actually drove 239.5km on thursday alone. I saw my pertol indicator drop 1 level after another...

My hse -> Bandar Baru Bangi -> Sg. Long -> Bdr Tun Razak -> Sg Buloh -> Sg Long -> Tun Razak -> My hse

Not bad, 239.5km i think i'm almost at Ipoh hahha.. As much pain as i will feel the next time i go to a petrol station i guess its still ok. I mean wat is the price tag on frenship? Mouse, Grn and the nanny are all my frens and to spend some peaceful n quality time together as frens... should i say it as priceless?? Anyway i better not get use to tis kinda behaviour.. the price of petrol is not getting cheaper u know.. i think its now USD 80.32 per barrel or was that ytd??

Neway, mousey if u r reading... have a nice trip and dun forget to get me a souvinier :p

To be or not to be... taken from McBeth

Well to be or not to be indeed... i got an email from him today asking me to help check some minor yet quite important stuff and after i downloaded it i start to wonder, should i even be helping him??? I mean by helping means i've forgive him for his mishap and by not helping him i'm putting out another candle... dilemma, dilemma, dilemma... wat should i do indeed.... sigh~~

1 side of my is saying "

"To hell wif him... if he had put in the effort from day 1, all would have been finish and we'll be celebrating but now... all u see is a pile of unfinished business"

then another side of me is saying

"time is running short and judging from his capabilities he'll drown long b4 the waves come"

Who should i listen to?? Wat should i do?? Its that 2nd voice that got me in this mess in the 1st place so should i still listen to it??? Or should i be stern n let him learn the lesson the hard way?? I've been thru the hard times so i know how tough it could get and its because i know is hard that's y i wan him to learn coz out there.. any mistake could be your last... y can't he understand that??? Why~~??

I'm really sick n tired of being the good guy, always conforming to others 'just because'. i wanna be the sadistic monster i once was and be more selfish so i can have something for myself, is that so bad?? is that so much to ask for?? sigh...

My personality ???

I guess i got bored again... sigh. There aren't much ppl i could talk to lately, i mean online and even if there is... i dunno wat to talk about and there haven't been much tat i can do besides work, i nid to revise on my programming but i'm kinda lazy to do work after working hrs... I was wondering has work really brought me further away from my frens?? Have we drifted so far apart that its hard to find a common ground to talk about? I could oni wonder... Anyway, i did this test again and guess wat i got... hahaha high in social hehehe... i guess there r things bout me that won't change after all hehe

Social

You scored 9 on the Social scale. This scale measures the extent to which like relating to the external world around you. 70% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Expressive

You scored 7 on the Expressive scale. This scale measures the extent to which you value spontaneity and an open-structured existence. 50% of the general population get high scores on this scale.

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Fair

You scored 6 on the Fair scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to base your judgments on objective fact. 60% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Intuitive

You scored 6 on the Intuitive scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to process information through abstract thought. 30% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Logical

You scored 6 on the Logical scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to process information through your five senses. 70% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Organized

You scored 6 on the Organized scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like your life to be organized and planned in advance. 50% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Compassionate

You scored 5 on the Compassionate scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to base judgments on what you, subjectively, believe to be right. 40% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

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Reflective

You scored 3 on the Reflective scale. This scale measures the extent to which you like to relate to the internal world within you. 30% of the general population gets high scores on this scale.

Bday celeb part 2

Well i've taken my sweet time to cool down and hopefully i'm cool enuf to continue tis hapi moment. Anyway back to the story... ... ...

Being the doggie for the bday girl hehehe :»Þ or am i a squrrel???

The session went on without the presence of another member, SC. She was still MIA and we started to get worried. I called her up and she say she could manage but later she called back saying that she's totally lost and she went to another Jusco instead... we were getting worried. Later Liz got another call from her then Liz asked whether could i drive her out to get her, i mean of course i can, the celebration wouldn't be complete without everyone right. So we went out and to guide her here. Liz give an excuse that she nid to go out to buy something and i was like ermm =_=" ?? While waiting for SC, we started talking. She asked me about my work and i begin bragging about the stuff that happened (i really nid to find another place to put my frustration sigh...) When SC arrive we went back. Once got back SC was singing her heart out coz she's been anticipating to sing but she was late.

Oh yea... its party time ~~

Later it was the cake session... the cake was brought in and we begin singing the bday song to HC. After the singing is over, and the cake was "officiated" i asked the bday girl to give a speech. It was a vry hapi moment for her as tis is the 1st time that all 6 of her sisterhood is here and she is vry touched with their presence there. Not to mention me i was there too hehehe... I've always been considered a fren to them and tis was the 1st time i celebrated her bday wif her.

Hapi Bday girl~~ Hope u enjoyed ur bday

Later, HC asked all of us the say something back to her and Camy manage to push to ball to me, asking me to go 1st and i was dumbed awhile... i mean i din actually had anything plan so it took me awhile b4 i started talking. As usual i spoke from the heart, thanking them for inviting me, i mean tis is the 1st time that i was actually invited to their bdays, 1st being Camy's bday and now HC's. To me it felt like i'm finally accepted as a fren instead of the acquaintance. It felt damn good.

Surf's up... oops i mean foot's up hahaa

Well i betta do some explaintions here.. to me there has always been a few levels in frenships having "Acquaintance" being the lowest level ... ... er.. i think i betta continue tis elsewhere some other time.. i dun wanna drift away from my main topic again hehhe...

Anyway the speech thingy went on one by one and it went more n more emo wif each person. Maybe i'm too slow or may be i'm just too stone (hearted i mean) or may be i'm just not close enuf to them to feel "it" coz even though i know wat they r trying to express to HC and to each other but to me... ... its just .. ... erm.. well i can't think of a word ... i'm just unable to related, that's all. Later everyone had a group hug and that really melted me away. That was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen n felt, it was really an honest time to express their love n care for each other. To the "ladies" who might be reading this, thx for showing me this, its not something that i can feel easily. We might not be vry close but all of u r my most prized frens. And after 2 more songs i have to take leave... i nid to get to KL Sentral to pick up bro... so wif that it ended a magical moment to me...

The moment, the time i spend wif them that night... magical. Will sure remember tis for a long long time. Thx everything.
True meaning of frenship... Doing the simpliest things together and to enjoy every second of it.

Frustration part 2

Well since i'm no longer in a good mood then might as well i continue with another frustrating thing that happen to me tis same week too. Seriously tis week is the best week i had in a vry long time coz i got to spend a lot of time wif a lot of my frens but i got a few frustrating things happning to me too.

The most frustrating thing is wat WY did, which have totally devestated my happy moment. The 2nd was when my boss asked me n Thong to try to develop a a program that could simulate stuff more like a CAD application and i was like 0_O" OMG.. wtf~~!! But i won't spend time talking about this coz its oni business so regardless of my frustration i still nid to solve it. The last thing was about Chien. Few day back we were chatting on MSN and she ask me to attend our forum gathring coz Kira its his IGN, is in kl. I told that i mingt not be able to make it coz i already have an appointment wif a fren. It was HY's bday gathering and it was already decided even b4 Kira's announcemnet. IT was still ok until she use the 'Guilt' on me, saying things like, "If you got heart u'll sure come." etc.. To those who dunno who CH Lee is, i'm not the type of person who give in to guilt. And i surely damn hate it if u try to use guilt on me.

So ytd was the actualy date where we were suppose to met and in the end i chose not to go coz i still unable to swallow the guilt thingy she used on me. Then she say another sentence wif the similar meaning to me, althought its not from her, but somehow i snap so i scolded her back on the phone. Sorry but i just dun like feeling guilty coz its not in my blood. If i'm going to be there wif a black face i rather not b there at all... i dun wanna be the reason everyone have a bad day.

The Ying and Yang on 28/9 My Frustration

Today (28/9) is the bday of 2 of my closer friends, Hue Cheng and Hui Ying. Both are equally important fren to me because, HC is one of the my uni's lady frens and HY is a close fren whom somehow i've assumed as a sister i've nvr have. Anyway, on this date i were to celeb the bday of HC. So after work i went to Green Box (again haha) for (another) kareoke session.

As usual there were a lot of singing and laughing. Camy and CO were singing their heart away to numerous chinese song, YK choose those really challanging english songs. Liz... well she took her time with song selection but usually sings along. HC, after 'refueling' she too was in the mood. Flora well i think she could sing but she chose to be the background instead. SYen well i coulnt tell much bout her she was in the mood for a lot of songs too. Lastly me.. well ... me.. i do a lot of sings along coz this is my first time singing wif them so i din know their "flow" still i really enjoyed myself.

Half way i got a call from a person whom by now (i do mean NOW) i'm damn fukin frustrated with. That idoitic, lazy, hopeless S.o.B .... WY. YES, i chose to put the name coz i wan him to know how frustrated i am towards him. He called my up asking me to go to 'guide' him althought i ask him to call CCL instead. CCL did a damn good move, he ignore this SOB and he came back to me. I was celebrating a bday and he called me up to just spoil me mood. I do nid to clearify something here, i'm not mad at him calling me, i'm mad that he's asking me to go to his hse to help him wif something and when i did arrive at his hse he's asking me something damn fuking basic that i've went throught wif him again and again, still he still wan me to go there, u know how frustrating it could be to give ur full commitment to help and teach but in the end the guy is just not instrested to learn.. AT ALL.

"For the love of god, its not my problem. Its your fuking problem, NOT mine. I've taught u all that i could, the best that i could and if u still dun wanna put in effort then my god have mercy in ur soul coz i'm totally dissapointed wif u. If u do have another problem wif ur thing... DON'T borther to call coz i'm NOT going to pick it up. U solve ur own problem ok. TQ and goodbye. If u do know me, u know that i say wat i mean and i mean wat i say."

Oh ya.. that surely disturb my blogging mood... I've lost my mood to write, I nid to cool down b4 i continue. TTFN.... WY if u r reading, until u repent and change ur ways of doing things, please dun call me coz i dun wanna F u to the ceilling again and this include going out or yamcha, or watever shit u have installed for me coz whenever i thought about wat happen that nite and u ask me all those question, my blood boils. I dun wanna be associated wif u for wat ever reason.

P.S. Tis is suppose to be a happy post about a bday celeb but it turns out to be my frustration window.

Thong Bday celeb

A piece of a bday cake

Ytd was the bday of my senior cum sifu. So HuayWoon had plan that we go GreenBox to celeb it. So after work all of u got there n sang our monday blues away, and it din take long for us to do that too heheh... all of us was basically fighting to get hold of the remote and skipping each other's song just to sang their favourites hehe.. talk about being "chin kak" hahah

I sang some of my usual songs, All or Nothing by O-Town, Kau Ilhamku by Mambai, a MLTR song etc... but the best part was singing the "Ah Ngo's Ji Lam Cheng Ko" (the most romantic love song) haha the lyrics of the song was damn funny and to sing it out in the open hahah.. the best feeling i had in a vry long time of my kareaoke history. Then i got to see (or should i say hear) my colleagues sweet, sweet voice over the microphone. It was really fun.

The stars of the day or should i say month... although ytd it was Thong's actualy bday

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As usualy KP did a few priceless jokes, especially wif his "Thank you, thank you for shutting up" (well it sounded better in cantonese) . YahLi was hogging the remote most of the time, Hong had a ball singing love songs, Thong.. well he might be holding to the mic but sometimes u can hardly hear his voice. VT and HW was .. well.. doing their thing. Wong was basically the most quiet among us, coz we made hell a lot of noise. SW was being her hehehe and Lee was really singing away. Really enjoy singing wif them coz everyone was singing to each other's song and we basically nid to fight (hehe literally) for the mic coz everyone just wanna sing.

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Well there is another incident where VT went behind Thong, blurt out something that i recorded on my camera hahaha.. haven't watch it yet but i bet it's damn funny hahaa.

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Well i'll leave u guys wif some of the hapi moments during the night coz i nid to say good nite hehe.. nitez

Tis is without a doubt the cutest version of VT i've ever seen hahaha

Leech, HW, VT, Hong, Thong

3 8 wuakakakaka

The crowd... w/o me of course hehehe

and here i am....

Hapi bday Thong... and Lee wish u an early bday coz u'll be in Ipoh during urs

HTML refresher crash course

Its been about 7 years since i did something wif HTML coding. I remember i learn it from my senior in MBS erm.. dun quite remember his name, i just rmb his nick was UK-Killer. Anyway using wat i still remember i finally did some modifications to my bloggie hahaha.. well it might be much but at least now i dun nid to memorize my frens' blog site hehee... If i'm able to recall more, i plan to edit some of the page's layout... but not so soon.. nid to spend time on my work 1st.

Anyway its time to hit the sack.. tmr got another bday celeb that i'll b attending, it's Thong's bday and Lee's too so going to celeb it by singing... i dunno how long do they intend to stay but i'm not taking any chances... going to bed now to slow charge my battery :p hehe nitez all

Vincent Bday

CCC, Vince and Leech

After for more than 4 months we finally met again... i mean my MBS buddies. Its been really awhile since we last met, i was busy wif my fyp + finals then wif WY's fyp making my available time to met wif guys greatly reduced. Anyway ytd i were invited to vincent's bday "dinner". Well it was suppose to be dinner but its just that its around 10+ which was way pass my dinner time, and i had somehting to eat at home b4 goin.

We went to Summers in Sunway for the buffet steamboat and there were quite a number of us... anthony, tony, ang chai, kenny, ah wah, ccc, vampire, ah b... then there was vinc's frens. Overall it was ok just that i din actually got a chance to get to know his frens more...

Actually i dun have much to say haha ... dunno y just dun have much to say ... so i'll let the photos do the talking.

Feeding time ~~~ ^o^

Ah B, long long long time no see... almost 4yrs i think =_="

Dunno who, Maryl, dunno who hahahaa

Was only able to got to know 1 of them :p and it was towards the end after we were at the parking. I just put this in to get some publicity hahaha :p Actually vince did intro but i only rmb Maryl coz we formally intoduce each other later on. Well lets see how long am i able to remember this name... i'm bad wif names

Anyway HAPI BDAY VINCENT~~~

oops.. almost forgot... Hapi bday to u too Min hehehe... almost forgot about ya ^-^

Feeling

Time has pass through and through
But why can’t I just forget you
The thought of your presence made me blind
Your scent lingers on my mind
Your voice echoes in my head
Your images appears when I go to bed

Why is it so hard?
Why it is so?
So much that I’ve lost control
Why is it be?
Why it is so?
Why can’t I just let it go?

If I’ve done it before
Then I can do it again
But why this time doesn’t feels the same
What had happen?
What did I miss?
Why can’t I again repeat this feat?

Nothing is as fragile as a human heart
The simplest things could tore it apart
When a heart is broken everything hurts
When it’s shattered it gets worse.
A simple word could sound so tough
A simple gesture could feel so rough
That’s when simple words could hurt me so
That’s when simple gesture delivers a heavy blow

It hurts me so
To delivered a heavy blow
Right now I feel so cold
I am tired and it got me weary
Last thing I need is to add to my worry
If something is there please don’t stay
I just want this feeling just go away

Another page from the Pathetic Poet

Cousin's Wedding

The meaning of happiness... sweet n beautiful

Last Sun (210907) was my cousin's wedding... My cousin is getting married... i wonder when... when will it be my... ... ... bro's turn wuakaka. To those of u who even think i would even consider to ask this question, i got 1 thing to say to u. U dun know me well enuf yet hahaha... Actually there aren't much i wanan blog about, just wanna share tis 2 photos i took which i think is really nice.

Last word: Congratulation Veng Yew ;)

Clarity